@malinda we weren’t yet but were in the process of buying a house! We had a plan to do it all up with some money we had coming at the end of the year…
@kd1988 yes well we’ll see next week won’t we? 
We will! But we’ll be here
For you 
Aww thanks! and vice versa!
We can do this
I will also be here for you two, whenever you need!
Yes, I know you were planning to buy a house together but I meant before you weren’t living together ? I thought you were since you said you’re packing up stuffs to move
@malinda right back at you!! All here for each other
@KD1988 its already helping even knowing that @pineappleblue I will have a look at your posts again I guess
Do you get this feeling that you’re afraid of forgetting them after you focus on yourself and getting busy with other things? Well something like that
@malinda I get this feeling about him forgetting me. And sometimes when I feel ok I worry because I think if I feel ok, then he must feel ok. And that scares me sometimes!
Well I had my own place before and as he worked away during the week he never officially lived there but stayed at the weekends and treat it like his own… So a lot of the stuff I bought we chose together for our first official home! And some of it he bought for the same reason…
Sorry I know it’s complicated! He works around 3 hours drive away from my home and stays down there Monday through to friday, although since the break he hasn’t been home (his family are here) since so has been down there full time!
I don’t so much worry I will forget him, I worry that I never will and I will always miss him! Even when I’m focusing on something else I’ll think, oh he’d like that or he does that and I have to stop myself and say, that doesn’t matter anymore, he’s gone!
@kd1988 we can definitely do this! Whatever happens!
@pineappleblue I’m the same. He’s on my mind all the time and I’m like that. But I have to tell myself to just stop! I have to think in my head it’s really over otherwise I’m just stuck in pain. Obviously I don’t want it to be’
It reminded me of what has happened between my Capricorn aunt and her husband, he broken up with her after 3 or some years of relationship and it was the same with her he was kinda living at her place staying over the weekends, she was miserable after the break up cried for days but still acted cool but accepted the fact and went on her life shes stubborn and brilliant, four months later someone from work showed interest in her and he somehow got to know about it as they both worked near by, after that he apologised and all that stuff then got back together, now they have 2 sweet kids
@KD1988 Thats exactly how I feel !! I have to think and accept its really over that im stuck in pain and at the same time i dont want it to be…weird ugh
I know what you mean. I think for my own sake I have to think it’s over, so I don’t cling on to hope. But inside I will keep fighting a little while longer
@malinda That sounds a lot like me, I’m definitely stubborn! I think that’s one of the reasons iv managed so well with NC, I was adamant I wouldnt be what he thought I would be! let’s hope that means there is hope for me!
@kd1988 I think that is all we can do! Focus on the future but keep that little ounce of hope inside, but not to let it control us or eat away at us! It’s hard to get out of the routine of considering them in everyday life as we’ve been doing it for a period of time beforehand and it becomes habit! It’s a sign we care and love them I think!
@pineappleblue completely agree!! It’s the not talking every day, not waking up to messages, that sort of thing that is hard to break initially! Feeling strong today. We can do this
I think this weekend is a write off for me! He’s been posting on FB last night about being drunk… So I’ve been worrying about what he’s been doing and what it means! I feel like were getting further and further apart…
Hopefully I’ll be back to strong tomorrow
I was feeling strong until about an hour ago! He’s been in contact and is completely playing games with me. Saying he won’t rule anything out but doesn’t want me to sit around waiting for him to see if he changes his mind. I said I wasn’t doing that at all and that I was getting on with life thank you. And he’s like well I’m glad you aren’t pushing me and are keeping things to yourself. I can’t give a definitive answer as to whether I will ever change my mind but for now it’s not changing. I didn’t even say anything!! It’s upset me and hurt me in the process. Feel like I’ve gone backwards!
Arghhh! That is so unfair?! I can’t believe that! It does sound like he’s sensing you moving on and he’s panicking!