Yep I can imagine!!
Why is this all so hard?!
I lost her due to the poor choices that I have made…
If only I have that second shot
@mj mine is similar. I didn’t make poor choices but I completely lost myself and was just an irritable cow really. Don’t blame him for losing attraction
my poor choices = being irritable
hahaha if only I could turn back time…
I always think that. I always think oh, if I could turn back time I would do this and this and this…
But I think it’s better to look into the future. It’s good that you’ve identified some things that you feel you could have done better, because that means you can try your best not to do that in the future 
@Annakis of course, we could have changed our actions but it wouldnt have actually solved the problem. The main thing is that we have learned
There’s aloti wish I could change, but I couldn’t see it at the time. I’ve done all I can do for now, and must stop beating myself up about it now.
Yeah exactly
The way I’m looking at is kinda the same as you. I can’t change what actually happened or how I acted at all, but if she does come back then I won’t make the same mistakes again.
And if she doesn’t come back then some other girl is going to reap the benefits of all the lessons I’ve learned! So it’d be her loss really!
Lol yeah true. He knows how I was at the beginning of our relationship, which is what he fell in love with. He’s messaged me today, I am not going to ignore him. I just feel sick wondering what his letter is going to say!
That’s always the case. People change over the course of the relationship. What did the text say?
Just normal chat. Been like a normal conversation. It’s so weird. Sometimes I feel we are going the right way, and then I think I’m reading into things too much
Have you received the letter yet?!
@mj not yet. It come around lunch time today (it’s 7am here now)
I’m so scared to read it! I know he is just going to be polite and friendly but nothing will have changed 
Good Luck @KD1988. My friend talked to my ex for an hour last night about everything for the first time since the break. I asked him “would u say it went well?” He said “Yes and no”. Wont know until later today what happen. Wish me luck
@Jared, his letter hasn’t come yet Will probably be tomorrow now. I just feel scared what he is going to say. We have been talking a lot this weekend, just normal talk. But I think I need to go back to NC again.
Good luck for talking to your friend later!
Thanks @KD1988. Yea but normal talk could be good. Getting your foot in the door is pretty nice =) Still no contact from her at all. I hope my friend has some good news for me. Today is 3 weeks since she told me she would reach out.
How do you guys even have long conversations with your exes??
Mine wont go beyond 10 exchanges 
@Mj not really long convos my friend lol. Just a bit of banter back and forth. I say “talking a lot” this weekend. I don’t mean all the time, just a lot more than we have in the last 3 weeks.
But still no letter, it hasn’t come yet. Another night of waiting for it!!
well at least the convo headed somewhere. idk it feels to me like she doesnt want to continue sometimes.
try not thinking about the letter! when it does come then you will be surprised!
@Mj headed somewhere and that cut off just as quickly as it began! Honestly, it’s not progress. Sometimes I think it is, but it really isn’t. Feel like I’m heading to having to move on soon.