at this point and time I feel really scared, nervous and desperate. I guess this is it, either break it or make it, I have hope but don’t want to fool myself either.Im so scared and confused. I hope this letter works. I may come here instead of exercising so I could write my letter. hopefully you’ve seen this and have been able to help me be able to write it out. then afterwards hopefully I can drop it off and then should I remain no contact again, im sure he would contact me. should i mention old memories in the letter? I’ve kept thinking of things we did as kids lol. im just scared to hear something like this is nice but I told you we would never ever get back together. 
I feel that coming after begging him and pleading him. lol (the deadly mistakes) oh my, should I write that I accept the break up? I dont think I should at this point and age.
also should I tell him about all the changes im doing or that a lot of good stuff are going on in my life and that i want to tell him about it or should i just write the letter expressing my feelings for him only of course not admitting fault but saying something with I’m so sorry I hurt you in many ways, those were never my intentions. I know all the pain you are feeling, and it’s one of the worst you can feel. Now I understand your pain really well and I can’t believe that this is what you were going through and feel. it’s really horrible to feel and now im understanding why your feeling this way. Im not sure what else to write from here but this was now from the top of my head. what else do you think I should write after this, I know im going to be coming up with more things to write, I havent written him a letter in forever, so im kinda rusty here and hopefully it’ll be more meaningful. im kinda stuck right now, any in put would be appreciated, thanks btw: I wrote him a letter a long time ago, when he stopped looking for me at the very beginning and thats how I got him to stay. should i mention that i was there for him when no one else was or should I not? should I also mention that we should do a friendship trail or is this a bad idea and just mention separation. thanks
I would also mention that you’re taking the fault and youre to blame. Unfortunately i dont know what he can and cant use against you in court… If you want, you can email me the letter before you give it to him 
I wont put my fault(what i did) in there though at the moment im trying to come up with ideas to write in the letter but i need to hurry up as im running out of time. I should probably translate it to spanish just to make it more difficult to use in court and make it different, idk or bilingual. what do you think? at least itll say i wanna try it out. so the court can see that im “trying”. what do you think?
[email protected] use this one
Have you written it yet?
thanks, I’m working on it now and this is so hard because I have so many emotions and so much to say that I dont know what to say and how to express it. any suggestions. also should i tell him to respond via letter? also should I mention to take his time to read and analyze what I wrote? like 2 weeks? should I mention how much I love him and miss him? or does that sound to desperate and needy? how should I mention the being separated part to him? should I tell him that im ready to start that friendship he wanted? and that I would like to hang out with him like in the old days? any suggestions? how would you write yours?
also should i mantain no contact after the letter again or not?
Give him the letter when you see him and let him contact you. Don’t tell him to do anything, just ask him to consider what you’ve written. Dont put any pressure on him, this is you telling him your feelings.
so give him the letter instead of dropping it of, thats gonna hurt. my hand hurts from writing but at the end its worth it. im going to traslate it or google translate lol so you can read it. I just didnt want to make it easier by writing it in english, lol
I think giving it to him is the best
send it to this [email protected]
the email deletes after 10 min
just did i hope you got it.
Just got it Did you send it from your real email? Coz then i’ll add it to mine
no but I can give it to you if you want.
I think it’s a great letter but you’re pushing him a bit to start fresh. I would maybe just say “I hope someday we can get back together/ someday you’ll take me back/ one day you’ll give me another chance”
So How would I reword everything? It took me forever to write it. I was also thinking that I could put something like, P.s. I miss your text messages and going to your lunch at work. also should I remind him of waiting for him a few times in the car, lol, something like, I miss waiting patiently for you in the car as you had to work.? thanks
what part am I pushing him at? he did tell me I wanted to be friends. I hope I wont have to re write the letter. :-/
ok will do, then and hopefully it doesnt sound pushy. @cassie Also should i allow my mother in law to read it?
@clear and @cassie should I text him, I miss him so much and I know he was sick but idk if I should to ask him how hes doing like a friendly text, he may not reply and being doing the same thing im doing, well was doing, no contact. or should I wait till he comes around or calls or texts, im scared since its friday he’s gonna find himself doing a lot of no’s or dont do’s, I feel un ace today. I miss him so much and want him in my arms. im scared to lose him. and if ya say yes to text him should I tell him i have something for him? also his mom told me she was gonna call him to check to see how hes doing. I feel scared and dont want to lose him, I love him so much, I feel like stalking him,lol, idk what to do. I hope hes not hanging out. im feeling down.