Hey everyone!
My backstory is in the Reconciliation section, quite long, but here it is-
https://www.forum.exbackpermanently.com/boards/topic/mixed-signals-and-more-nc-help/
A quick recap- We broke up after 9 intense months on September, I made all but one of the 5 deadly mistakes; after chasing her for 4 months I decided to go NC, two weeks later she contacted me; we met, she told me she tried dating but nothing worked out and she missed me; we tried to get back during the end of January, met a bit, talked a lot, even had sex (which I’m not sure was a mistake on my behalf), and yet she said she’s not ready yet, that now, finally, I’m no the reason we can’t get back, but she is. She said she has to go through a process, maybe see a therapist, cuz she has lots of stuff she isn’t happy about herself, and she has to solve them by herself, and being in a relationship will prevent her from facing them alone.
So we started NC again, which lasted a week since we study in the same building at the same university. I saw her on Sunday March 8th, and we texted and I tried to convince her to meet up as friends; but when she kinda evaded I pressured her and things kinda went south; when we met on the train 2 days later, she told me she cried after our texts and that she’s distressed about it and scared of not me, but the whole situation, that is, seeing me at the university, or the train, not knowing what to do when that happens etc.
So I decided that Tuesday (the 10th) that I REALLY don’t wanna be that kind of guy, and started NC again, not sure for how long, but at least a month.
I don’t wanna lose hope; last time I started NC she contacted me 2 weeks later, only to realize she wasn’t ready to get back.
I feel much better now, haven’t seen her since then (managed to work my schedule around meeting her), but, as much as I know I need to move on, I believe she’s the love of my life, 6 months after the breakup, and our attempt to get back only proved me how much that’s true.
Not sure I’m asking for any kind of advice, just wanted to vent a bit, but if any of you got any tips, or just feel like cheering a guy up, I’d really appreciate it!