It’s just because of what he said. It really cut deep and thinking I had been making progress and then suddenly it is worse than it was before. Has just knocked me a little bit… well, a lot. I will get back up again but going to take some time again. I wasn’t ready to of reached out before, I thought I was but I wasn’t. If he messages me I will be polite, but if he starts conversation again like yesterday then I will stop talking.
‘’ Never lose hope, my heart, miracles dwell in the invisible. ‘’
I like that quote 
@KD1988 Leave that hes helping you during this hard time on a side but hes making you feel bad with that sting thing, so you should focus on yourself first to recover to think about the situation more clearly. As if hes trying to make you say you want to get back together with him that hes not able to do it so
@Malinda I definitely need some time. I really do. My head is all over the place again and not thinking as clearly as I was before, so must stop thinking about him and start thinking about myself again. I have promised myself to stop contact again from today. I need to see if some time not talking will make a difference.
You should do strict nc maybe while you have a good chance and let him miss you and realize the things better and let it out how he really feels inside…in my opinion though
Yeah I will do NC now. I don’t think he will contact me as he was annoyed with me yesterday. It could go either way… he could miss me and realise how he feels inside and let it out, or he could not miss me and realise he is fine without me.
He would be curious and contact you I believe since you were in contact before so don’t worry you will be doing good and he would contact you I’m guessing but you should feel good and confident when he does…
Oh yes definitely. I need to get my confidence and strength back again. I had it and then I lost it again for a little while. It will come back again. Just need some time
@KD1988 your doing the right thing! And him being annoyed with you could be one way of him dealing with how he really feels. I heard on the radio this morning, anytime your feeling worried or nervous or not at your best, you should stand in the superhero pose for 5 minutes. With your chest puffed out, hands on your hips and face in the air. To be honest, if anything, this would just make me laugh, so it could well work!
I am going to start with my sorting tonight so that i am in a positition to text him in the next day or so. Urgh. Im scared!
@pineappleblue Yeah I think he has the feelings but as he is stubborn doesn’t want to admit them right now and felt a bit panicky like I was trying to pressure him maybe and he wasn’t 100% sure. So NC should sort that out, either way lol.
Haha I’m going to try that when I go home at lunchtime!
don’t be scared lovey, it will be fine. You just take your time and do it when you feel ready. x
I dont think i will ever be ready for a negative response. I dont think i will get one, but if he says he won’t meet me, thats it, there is nothing more i can do. I have to put the ball in his court, the whole time im waiting to text him im in control, once i’ve sent that text it is down to him! That is what scares me… because if he doesnt want me back then he will do nothing!
You will have to let me know how you get on. I am at work so i dont think an office full of people would appreciate my superhero pose.
Yes your right, NC should sort it right out. Keep us updated!
@pineappleblue I know what you mean about the control at the moment. But IF he said he wouldn’t meet you, I wouldn’t necessarily throw away all hope. As you said to me that’s a silent victory in some sense, as they can’t meet you which shows they still have strong feelings. If that situation were to come about and he didn’t meet you, you could always try again at another point. That’s how I see it anyway.
NC will sort it out either way, of getting back or moving on. So we will see what happens over the next month!
@kd1988 yes I know you are right! I really need to text him now so tonight’s the night… I will go to the gym, work off my upset, go home and sort his stuff out and just do it! No more of this fannying around…
@pineappleblue you can do it!! Gym is good, I have my exercise class tonight 7.30-8.30 which always makes me feel better! Yep get it over and done with, you’re doing really well!
Thanks!! exercise is actually the best way to heal a broken heart! I’m adamant if he doesn’t want a slimmer sexier me then someone else will haha! Although I’d rather be did!!
Yes I really recommend exercise, i’m about to go out for a run now… Exercising releases all kinds of feel good chemicals, definitely something good to do if you’re getting down
Yeah I’ve embraced it!! I did it before I met my ex, so was looking and feeling good before we met. Getting back to that
Awesome! I think a part of this whole making ourselves better thing is getting back to who we were, because breaking up is so devastating… But not only will we get ourselves back, we’ll have some upgrades too!
Yep I was lovely and slim when we met, although I was only 18 so still really young! When we first got together I put on a few LBs trying to keep up with him as he’s very tall and very broad so eats like a horse (he’s also a fitness freak which helps)! Last year I lose a stone with his help and then due to getting made redundant and having to move back home with my mum til we bought a place, in the last 4 months I have put some, not all, of it back on! So I’m gonna show him I don’t need him to be slim again, but if he wants to reap the benefits he can do! Haha!
Thinking about it, he’d been having these doubts 3 months which ties in with getting made redundant and moving back… Wonder what that means? Or maybe it’s my few extra pounds that put him off! :S