I don’t know what I want. I want the old him back. He may change but he won’t until he realizes what I have done for him. So why I’m still sticking around, I have no idea because it isn’t going to make a difference. Wow, you actually made me break down. I haven’t done that in forever.
That’s good. Just mail it to her!
I will I’ll send it off before I go on my road trip.
I feel for u, I hope he realises and sorts his act out
Yay! I wish you the best of luck!
Its like I’ve been ignoring the situation for a while because I have been focusing on me. I haven’t given myself time to grieve once more. I need that time. Yeah, you can’t make people feel a certain way but you can definitely make them realize. If he didn’t want me in his life, I’d be gone. He wants me in his life no doubt. I need to figure out away to help him realize and that I am the girl for him. Because if you ask anyone else they say I’m too good for him which is what makes me the one for him.
@gingerone I just got off the phone with me and he was so happy to talk to me. Before we said goodnight he said “I love you”. Do you understand my confusion? 
@gingerone I’m starting to write my letter too and am not sure if I should send it personally or by mail.
@ellie damn why’d he say that all of a sudden?
@Mj let me read your letter!
And dude, that’s what I’m saying. Now do you understand why I’m so confused?
I’m still trying to balance out the contents! I shouldnt mention that I want her back right?
But it seems like you guys are getting along better? Positive change perhaps?
@Mj I don’t think you should mention that. You have to act like you’re moving on!
And we are getting along. But he isn’t appreciating me. Like, when he went on his trip he came back and told about how he got all these girls but didn’t sleep with them and deleted their numbers right away. Its as if he is bragging yet he wants me to see that he isn’t being committed to someone. Then he will say something along the lines of “you need a good college guy” and then I’ll be like “well what do you need?” and he will say “a good college girl” and then I’m like “which is me??” Then he will get quiet and say we will talk about that the next time we get together. But then he is excited to talk to me, tells me the reason why be hasn’t texted me is because he was working all day to reassure me that he isn’t ignoring me and then tells me he loves me. So I am just beyond confused.
But what if she thinks its great I’m moving on and it just solidifies her decision to stay with her new guy.
Sounds like he doesnt know how to pick his words!
She won’t! It’ll bother her like crazy!
And even then some I’m not a huge priority like I should be. It’s as if I have him but I don’t. He takes time to call me though and I’m sure he doesn’t with other girls!
But why would she be bothered???
Right now you’re like with him but not romantically involved sorta thing haha
She’d be bothered because she still loves you. The dude is a rebound. He’s a distraction. The fact that you took the time to write her a letter, it will blow her mind. You could put in the letter “I hope that maybe in the future, we could have something again. But I understand if you don’t.” Even when my ex sent me that long text saying he understands if I don’t forgive him. That impacted me. It will impact her.
I agree. I know he wants to be intamite. But I think he is coming around for more than just a booty call. It is taking every ounce of me to reject him in that manner.
I get what you’re saying. I will show you the letter soon!
I hope your mind will be clear when things start to get serious, dont make any mistakes Ellie!
I can’t wait 
And I don’t know when/if things will ever get serious again! I feel like the only way to get them that way is to start pulling back! But I don’t know!
Like he literally just called me babe… Yet he doesn’t know what he wants, I’m barely a priority, he expects me to come around on his call, and he wants to be friends for right now. Ugh
She calls me babe too but its probably due to habit…
Nah he meant to do it. It was over text. He just texted me and said he had something to say and he is going to tell me how he feels. I’m so nervous right now.
Sounds like the moment of truth ellie! Hope it’s gonna be what you wanted to hear
He said he had a rough day so he took a pill to help him sleep and it made him a little high which makes him want to tell me how he feels. I’m having like a panic attack. Because I don’t know if he is going to be totally cruel or really nice.
Ellie dont overthink now!