@Hamauel thanks for the reply. 
this sucks that he keeps showing signs of not wanting to be with me. 
its so depressing. I hope your right about everything. I have no idea what he could be thinking f me atm. I hope it works. I feel like he keeps invading my space as he wouldnt like me doing that to him if it were me. ugh lets see how everything unfolds itself from here on. ugh, I’m hoping for the better preparing for the worse, or trying to anyways. :-/ thanks.
@divjun thanks for the reply. its so hard not to feel depress when I feel like or know that my whole life is falling apart. I really miss him. atm I cant face him, every time he comes around or tries to contact me, it hurts me really bad. I hate this feeling. thanks
I can understand what you’re going through. But you just cant give up. Try to keep yourself busy and work on yourself. Go on a date maybe?
@cassie thanks for following me and helping me along the way till now. so we both sound confused? omg. thats horrible. so wait for hm to contact me no mateer in which way. he probably knows by now that im bothered about something, he may be confused as to why im acting the way I am. I have no clue. its so hard to remain strong while all of this is happening but its so hard. hes actually pushing me away after he said he was gonna help me. look at what hes doing with the insurance. yes hopefully by getting this job he’ll start seeing a bigger change in me but I highly doubt that he’ll care as far as going back with me. If anything he’ll probably look at it as less money he needs to give me or something. ugh(i’d be good because at least I’ll be getting my own money and stuff its the only good thing. ugh. I hope im doing great. ugh. I was thinking if I do talk to him and he asks me about the church to tell him that I’ll have to go to check it out to see what I think about it then I’ll let him know. to use it as an excuse to be in the same place as him. do you think its a good idea? also this way I can talk to the pastor of this church its a really small church and see if she could help with my marriage. do you think its a good idea?(i honestly dont see how he could go to church while acting this way) let me know what you think. I really feel like Ive lost him and I hate this feeling. ugh thanks cassie
He will for sure contact you again, it’s just a matter of time. I think that he is definitely confused as to why you are acting the way you are also, if he comes by again, be nice and talk to him otherwise he will find you silly and immature.
I don’t think you should go to the church just to be in the same room as him. I think it’s not a bad idea for you to speak to a pastor about you marriage, if it helps you then go for it
your right its just hard to confront him. if he does ask me why I acted that way Ill just tell him I dont want to talk about it. also if he doesnt contact me then even better. but your right about him thinking of me as silly and immature. hes probabbly confused and may be thinking it. i may have to put ground rules to him as to when he can contact me and get the kids ect. well to be next to him but to see how it is as well. I’ll have to think about it. also if he wants to be a hypocrite and look for God and go to that church then why not. God hates divorce right? and if I was willing to work on my marriage then he should want to have to stay. so maybe they can help me out, who know. im so stressed depressed ect. ugh. i feel so hurt. I really miss him. I wish I could have him back. Ugh 
Yes, it’s tough but you’re doing as good as you can! I think putting down ground rules would be good.
He is maybe jealous because of the meat cutter guy and he’s trying to make u feel bad about it a little … I read both of your topics …
Honestly … I think that what you had together can’t be forgotten in a month or two …
And …
because of the children … I think you shouldn’t start the NC role … you can stop calling … but you should answer his calls sometimes …
He clearly still has feelings for you … and I think … if you act smart … you can get back with him by being his friend …
Good luck … and keep us updated
thanks cassie. I guess your right with everything im going through im handling myself pretty well. it just sucks. He finally called this morning (meaning he respected my wishes) so thats a good thing. he left me a voicemail saying he dropped both kids at school. that my youngest was 3 minutes late because of traffic. also to call him then he said said text (because he knows Im not talking to him) if anything. so that was it. havent heard anything else from him at all. was the message good bad or just regular? thanks
@mema thanks for reading my posts and replying. the reason why Im doing no contact again is because the way hes acting and I feel like hes hurting me and I need to have this space between us so I can continue to improve myself and become stronger because every time he comes around I fall back down and its hard for me to get back up again. how do you think I should go about being friends with him then? he keeps sending me mix signals and I feel like i’ve lost him already. I feel like its not the right time just yet for this, but im not sure, maybe its me trying to protect myself so I wont get anymore hurt again. ugh what are your suggestion and what do you think would make him want to come back? every time I though he was close I just see him further away all over again and the pain in unbearable, hence the no contact. ugh. thanks
I think the message he sent was just regular Definitely not bad and it’s great that he is respecting your wishes. You don’t need to respond to the text, just continue no contact now
thanks cassie. ugh this is so hard. I miss him so much and just want to see him and be with him. I may see him tomorrow. this is so hard on me. do you think that he would ever come back? realistically? ugh I hate this so much. I miss him.
ok so he texted me saying: hi how are the kids. so im gonna wait for a while before answering him, so he doesnt think every time he texts or calls im gonna answer. im just gonna say hi, yes, and thanks. its all im texting him and if it wasnt about them I wouldnt even be texting him. also I logged on to my fathers facebook. I deleted mines a long time ago, he rearly ever goes on to write anything on and bam his post pops up right in front of me. ugh. that hurt but Im just ignoring it. ugh the post wasnt bad but unexpected. he just wrote everyone dont forget about the blood moon tonight. about 11 hrs ago. ugh I miss him so much and want him back. ugh this sucks.
Don’t worry about what he does on social media, it wont change anything so if it makes you feel bad to see him write something, dont check it again! Yes, in the text just be nice, casual and to the point like "Hi, kids are good "
I know it tough but just one day at a time!!
yeah I dont I actually went on to check something out and came across that. He text me back thanks for letting him know. I didnt text back. he then called and left a voice mail. the voice mail was him saying hi my name that he wanted to talk to my oldest. my oldest mis behaves so much and I guess she talks to him and not me. ( I guess I have a big problem in my hands.) anyways I let her call him and she started talking really bad and low about me. ( she literally made me cry telling him she hates me and a bunch of mean things) then she kept walking away from me with the phone. I even heard her say to him I know and she needs to understand that. (for some reason I keep thinking she was saying I need to understand that hes not gonna get back with me but im not sure what it was about.) (so I shouldnt stress right?) also he keeps calling me by my name and I feel like its a bad thing because to me it means that he isnt getting back with me. Im so stressed and depressed. ugh, I wanna cry. anyone? thanks
Hey if you stay at home of course you will miss him badly all day, do you. Want to be more attractive ? Such as have a job and seems busy?
There is not much to do about it. Just keep doing the no contact right now and focus on yourself and your children
actually I applied for a few jobs that never called me, but some one told me about this one job and I went this morning for a try. thing being I notice my kids schools schedules interfere with any job. this really sucks. but im gonna try to see if I can do this job. it’ll bring me in money that I need and it’ll keep me busy. Im gonna keep losing weight for me, for my health to look better. Im gonna continue to try to better myself but its hard. I keep hearing Im young, theres others,ect. things I dont want to hear but are true. I guess he never appreciated me and took me for granted. I’m just gonna have to see this as over, most likely it is. im only fooling myself here. I will continue no contact for me. hopefully it helps but unfortunately I still have to have contact with him even though I dont want to. if he does come back I’ll be the happiest person on earth if not something has to give. but I hope he comes back but I highly doubt it. it seems hes sure of what he wants. he seems happy and is probably happy talking to those sluts. Im so hurt Idk what to do anymore. this is so hard. I hate this.
I hope the job situation works out for you!! It will for sure attract him to you… I highly doubt that he is happy talking to those other women, soooo dont worry too much about them… they’re just rebounds and mean nothing to him. I really hope that the no contact works out for the best!
ugh unfortunately is all I can do isnt it cassie. I hate this pain. do you think he’ll come back? I highly doubt it.