Well… I haven’t won the whole war yet. But it all looks good. I’m not sure how much but to a certain degree, I guess it’s also thanks to directions on this website.
At this point, my gf sent me an e-mail where she states she’s thinking about me and how much I understand her, that she doesn’t feel good at all, that she’s not over our breakup and, also, in the end she mentions she’s thinking about the city I live in (we’re long distance since she moved to study abroad, she’s coming back to our city in July).
Then, she also hit me up on Facebook, saying we can Skype ‘if you want’. I replied I do want and she said she was happy to know that.
I don’t want to celebrate too early but I think my perspectives are quite good, ain’t they?
I did exactly 30 days of NC.
Then, I sent her a brief email, mostly about a song she would sing to me when we were together. She replied one day later with basically nothing too interesting. When I replied back, she didn’t respond anymore. It discouraged me but I said to myself it’s not a reason to give up. I waited for a week (until today).
I sent her another email, just about what I do and think about these days which doesn’t have much to do with her. And, in a matter of hours, I got this reply and her almost bugging me on Facebook.
She wanted to skype with me now and I told her it’s not convenient because all my flatmates are around and that I’m leaving town for the weekend tomorrow so it’s going to happen on Monday or later.
So, our first Skype convo happened. Honestly, it was AWKWARD because down the line, my mic stopped working. Haha. But other than that, here’s the deal: she looked rather broken, was crying but was hesitant to talk about it (mainly because the awkwardness caused by the bloody technology). The convo was rather short because for some time, we tried to communicate with her speaking and me typing. It’s weird. I don’t want her to feel pain but also, I can’t help thinking that in her pain, there’s hope.
