We are all having a hard time. Our story may all be different. But we are all going through the same pain. We are all going through the same heart break. At some point , we were so devastated that we feel like our whole world is falling apart, and we could actually feel our heart breaking. It’s like we’re so out of breathe and trying desperately to breathe when there isn’t even oxygen left. Because breaking up with someone you love so deeply isn’t just an occasion, it don’t just happen once and stop right there. Because when you lose someone , you lose them over and over again.
You lose them when a glimpse of memory came by your head where you both were having the best times of your lives , you lose them when you suddenly found clothes that belong to them at the end of the pile of your laundry, you lose them when you played that very song that had been on your playlist since the day they left, and how every words remind you of every memory, every feeling, the way it felt when your lips touched, and the way it felt to be in their arms just lingers on and on like they’re still there… you lose them when you drove by or went to the places that you both have been together, that favourite restaurant you both always head to, that cinema where you both always had late night movies , that particular theme park where you both held hands so tightly while going on a roller coaster, that mall where you both had your first date…and even holding hands felt so right…you lose them when you wake up in the morning everyday looking at the empty sheets and realising they are not there any more… you just lose them over, and over again.
And sometimes I wonder, why do people give up on love so easily? It’s funny that when it all first started, you don’t need any reasons to fall in love, you just did. But in the end, it ended because of so many reasons. And we’re all here trying so hard, because deep inside our heart, we still love them deeply, we still appreciate them, we grab hold of our memories with them, we don’t want to give up here. We still hope to make things work. We believed that, they are the ones. Because they were once a huge part of our lives and so are we. We’ve spent months and years with each other’s presence and losing them isn’t just like losing a pen where you can just easily buy another one, losing them is like losing a huge part of ourselves.
And so we tried to search the internet for ways to get them back and make things right. And everyone of us is hurting deeply with our own broken love story. And I’m writing this to let everyone know that we have each other. We may be strangers in real life but behind every posts and behind every replies, are real people , who are is breathing the same air and living at the same land , and going through a heart break. And because we know what it’s like to feel heartbroken. And let’s try our best to reply one another because it really sucks to especially going through a heart break and have no one to talk to because maybe in your life, no one understands or in some cases no one really cares.
To the one reading this. I bet you sure did had the same thought as I did before : ‘Why can’t I just sit down with them , and talk things out and make everything right. We are all just humans, we made mistakes. We didn’t know the right way to love someone because love doesn’t come with instructions, not like some science experiment. And neither of us is wrong just have to figure our problems together and have some positive changes in our relationship…’ But it’s just not as simple as that.
But why are we the ones trying? When it all first started two people have to agree to start this relationship but it ended because one person wanted so? Yes it’s so unfair, it’s so unacceptable. But we can do nothing about it. The harder we try to talk to them , the further that pull back away. But I truly believe that there are chances that people get back together after a breakup, stronger than before. All they need to sometime apart to really grow up mentally and finally loving each other the right way. But it isnt gonna happen just because we wanted it to be. We really need to work for it. By really growing up ourselves. No one ever in this world is gonna love us more that ourselves did. We are responsible for our own happiness. To be that cheerful and energetic person back when you and your partner haven’t even started.
Moreover, we’re born into this world alone. The purpose of this life is to learn to be happy alone. We shouldn’t let happiness determined by a person’s attention , or a moment . Because all these are just temporary. We need to realised what it takes to be truly happpy. Then only we get to be in a healthy relationship with someone. Let’s stay strong guys! Don’t lose hope, just don’t hope too much. We can get through this together. Because we’re worth it!
-Gwen
Somehow I really wished that we could actually have another place to chat with each other when we don’t have anyone to talk to