I was with a girl for nearly a year. I’ve never loved another girl the way I did this one, I thought she might have been “the one.”
I lost tragically lost members of my family a few years ago, and as a result suffer from some residual mental illnesses.
Christmas time us insanely difficult for me. My girlfriend and I got in a fight, our second real fight in a year. The stress of the holidays and a manic episode ended up pushing me over the edge. I said some really, really mean things, and hurt her very badly. She told me to delete her number and never speak to her again.
I hate myself for what I said. I took my problems and anger out on her.
I waited over a month, have been seeing a therapist and getting the help I need, and have generally been feeling great.
Until today.
I sent her a text, but never got a response. I reached out today via a social media platform. She told me she never got the text, said that she didn’t want to hear from me ever again. She said how much I hurt her. She’s also already in a relationship.
Part of this is me getting it off my chest, part of this is me needing advice. It sounds like she’s still hurting badly over what I did. And rightfully so. I hate myself over what I did.
I figure it’s a good sign she talked to me at all, despite having blocked my number. I think she’s in a rebound relationship, but she’s listed as single on Facebook.
Do you think there’s a chance? I’m not sure what I should do. I’ve never been so torn up over a girl. Normally I just move on pretty quickly. If I wait two or three months more, do I have a chance?