Hi everyone! I wanted to give you a quick update on something quite historic I would say. I have just experienced an awakening that has left me feeling so well liberated, feeling so lucky, and so humbled. For the first time in my ENTIRE life (hahahaahhah), I was actually turned off by my ex! It is crazy to say this, but it is a hundred percent truth.
Th euphoria that I feel is…almost indescribable (although I am trying my best ot describe it to you hahahahah 
) . It feels great when my mind consciously acknowledges that he is not a person that I should be spending my time with or going out with. The subconscious fact that we do not click well in terms of similar interests and thus do not get along well has emerged to the conscious part of my brain, and this consciousness is so reviving and rejuvenating.
Previously, I would just tolerate his condescension – a part of who he is. But now, now that my life is building up and getting off on a fresh, good start, he pales in comparison in all wholeness to the new friends and other more meaningful friendships that I have managed to sieve out in my ongoing relationships with my peers.
I want to tell you that it is a great feeling to have this self-realisation. Realising for myself, and not through the incessant advice of others, that he is not…worth it anymore, is one of the most empowering things a girl can experience.
I hope this acts as some form of inspiration or encouragement for all out there who are suffering from gaining back your self-worth or feeling good about yourself (which is actually so so important and key) after a break-up.
I realised my forte in certain areas, relating to my flair for the korean language, and the performing arts–committing to these areas, their related people communities and spending quality time with my strengths makes me feel very empowered and makes me realise that I am so much more than my lonely, down self prior to this, and the projection of these potential personal strengths that could develop into viable lifestyles or career paths for me warrants alot of excitement and positive anticipation for my future.
Taking control of my future is so empowering, and that is thanks to me following my interests, and having reflected on what I want, and how I can better develop myself as a person.
It feels beyond amazing. Sorry to repeat this so many times XD but it really does. And I hope that you will be able to reach such a peak in your mental and emotional development as a person. My sincere wishes are directed towards you, Reader
Thank you so much for reading this. I will continue to update you on my self-development. I truly hope that this is an inspiration in some form for you trying to develop yourself too after a down period.
Cheers :)))
P.S. Life feels so meaningful, and it hasn’t felt so meaningful in a considerable amount of time