Its been 5-6 months since we broke up.
I’m kinda sure that he could sense i wanted him back and he was sure that he was not losing me forever.i had some serious anger issue and we argued a lot even during last 5-6 months and it was really my fault all the times.and i really worked on it and i have really changed.i met him about 3 months ago,and he kept talking about his feelings for me and he also talked about a future with me.that night he found that i still loved him.
in short,
We broke up,i started NC,he contacted me after 34 days.I mixed the 5step plan and relationship rewind together and i was following it. he kept chasing me and talking about his feelings for me, he asked me out,he cried and again said how much he loves me over and over again.but he never asked me to get back with him.
I went to europe for 2 months,we were in touch,we had an argument and i went on NC for 20 days.he contacted me and kevin suggested me to break NC.he said again he talked about his feeling,cried and said he feels bad without me and he kept asking if i was dating or having sex with someone and that he couldn’t handle that.again he didn’t say anything about getting back.
I came back,he asked me out twice and i made some excuses because i didn’t want him to think i am always too interested and i also missed him so much and i didn’t want to ruin everything acting emotional.
We never met again and he said that he missed me many times.we had 2 arguments again and then he called me and said that he loves me but we can’t get back together because its only gonna make more and more arguments like before and that he can’t handle that anymore.i said it was fine and i never asekd him to get back with me.
Until 2 weeks ago i guess,i texted him and i said that i love him but we should stop contacting each other and both of us should move on and that none of us can start a new relationship when we are still in touch.
HE said he can’t forget me and its really hard for him,then he said please give me a chance to see you,then he said:don’t do that to me,suddenly cutting every thing off…i can’t handle that.
I have been thinking since then and i thought i couldn’t see him again just to say goodbye.so i texted him and asked him to finish everything and i said i was sorry for breaking the deal and the meeting could keep me from moving on.he said he loves me again and wished me all the best,so did i.and he said he hates my next bf,fiance,husband.we exchanged some other texts and in one of them he told me not to think about a future with him and get on with my life with kisses.
That was it
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