@all one: I understand evertyhing you said. I’m dealing with that struggle too. So many projects, so many love and dedication, and it all came down to this.
But, no matter what,don’t think it’s easier not love. It mau sem like it, but one of these days love will come back knocking on your door and this time it’s going to be different! 
Day 14
After not being on any form of social media for the past 6 days I decided today was the day I would begin to try to show off my progress and betterment. First thing to pop up on my feed was a mutual friend of ours posting about their trip to Vegas. I went on a search frenzy to find hundreds of pictures of fun in sin city. I don’t even know where to begin to express how terrible of an idea this was but I convinced myself I had to see first hand what transpired on her trip. It was relieving to see everything while not having to guess what had happened but at the same time it brought me back to the memories we shared while also giving me a sense of guilt as to why I would have to see these pictures. We aren’t together so I shouldn’t be concerned even if I’m still in love with her. I had been making so much progress since the breakup. Im back in the gym, going out with friends, have been on a date and have been in better moods. This brought me back a bit. I Would have to grade today as a loss in terms of progress but tomorrow is another day to step forward…
Thank you, Mia. These are some comforting words.
I’m just sick and tired from all the pain of being abandoned once more. I told my ex 10000 times before we start dating that I’m already damaged good, overly sensitive and that I’d rather be alone than had my heart broken once more. That he doesn’t take me lightly, that I have history of depressions and basicly if we get together and he leaves me, I would be in that dark dark place once more and that I don’t know if I would have strength to pull my self away. I warned him, I really did.
Good job, idiotic me. Now look for the pieces of your broken heart all over again…
@ all one
Work on yourself. Believe me, it is good. I know that you miss him and that you feel devastated, but try to knock that depression out!
Someone new is going to be in your life in no time, but for The time being, concetrate on yourself. Do a change, learn new stuff, work on yourself.
I know what you’re going through, but now it’s “me time”
Allone - Please understand that everything you are feeling right now is completely normal. There’s nothing wrong with you with regards to how you are feeling. But also understand you are internalizing this a bit wrong. You were entering your anger phase by telling us how wrong he was to enter a relationship with you when you really weren’t ready. Go with that for now. Then you go and call yourself an idiot. That’s toxic thinking. You need to understand you are human like anyone else and deserving of love. Don’t blame yourself for taking a chance and trusting someone else. They’re the one that gave up, that screwed up, not you.
I really hope you understand that you deserve better and that you will be ok. Don’t give him the power to make you feel bad about yourself.
If you’re not seeing a therapist, you should consider doing so to help you through this difficult time. I worry that your distress is taking a deep toll on you. If you are truly damaged, then wait until you are better before putting yourself in a situation that could potentially set you back. Enjoy being you for awhile and when you feel secure, confident and empowered, then you will know you are ready and will be armed with the knowledge required to find a partner worthy of your heart, whether that’s your ex or somebody better.
I’m on day two after 27 hours. Left him a message asking him to see me then ran 2 miles and blocked him on whatsapp. Unfortunately I can still view when he was last online. I’ve been checking it regularly. 
This is hard
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Hey, an update…after about a year since the break up i can say i have managed to build a stable bridge with my ex; we are hanging out again xD
That is awesome Martin. I am literally just starting NC from a breakup a few days ago. It is hard for me to imagine where I will be a year from now. Not trying to contact my ex girlfriend for even one day feels like an eternity already. It is clear to me though begging/pleading did nothing to help my cause so here I am giving it a go.
Patience is the key, its a lot more complicated than just NC.
I don’t mean to sound negative by any means, and I am actually hoping to find some help within your words, or encouragement.
But since a whole year has passed, how do you know that things will be differently?
I guess I am having a hard time believing myself… My ex and I split. I asked her to come back to me to work things out, and she actively chose her ex boyfriend over me… I am not sure I could see beyond her choosing another man that she admitted “he won’t ever love her” and “they don’t have passion” over myself.
Yeah I am working on that (doing a write up which i will post here).
I look forward to it.
I’m in NC. I texted and called my ex once. When we broke up, I called her and texted her for a day then stopper. Called once last week and texted 2 weeks ago. Since then, she hasn’t called or attempted to make contact. After a year, loved each other to the ends of the earth. Her daughter calls me dad sometimes. I really doubt she even thinks or misses me. Idk if it my mind or my instinct but I don’t even think she will call let alone repond to me after NC
Wow man you’re still trying to get the ex back? It’s been a year!
As for me I’ve moved on and couldn’t be happier.
Everyone that’s going through a fresh break up you must listen and trust what I’m about to say…
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You can not for any reason continue pursuing your exes if they have decided to end the relationship. This only will push them away and quickly change their perception of you into someone who’s needy, annoying, can’t take a hint etc. basically any and all positive emotions associated with you will quickly be replaced for negative ones and you never want someone especially an ex you’d like back to get the shivers whenever you come to mind… So please just stop!
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The ONLY way to have a chance of a reconciliation is to to walk away and leave the door open. This means, the last interaction you have with them about the breakup and listening to the reasons for it (no matter if they’re lies) you simply have to say something along the lines of “ok I see your side but I’m not interested in anything other than a romantic relationship with you. No friends sorry I see you as more. But hey if you change your mind get in touch and if I’m still available by then we can take it from there”
That’s it!! Something along those lines basically stating you don’t want the breakup but accept their decision and politely walk away and never contact them ever again for anything unless they contact you first.
You have to do this whether you want to or not. Do not follow movies where the dumpee pursues and tries over and over again to convince the dumper they made a mistake. People do not operate like the fantasy of movies.
- Remember this statement “rejection breeds obsession” your ego has taken a hit and this causes you to think the dumper is the most fabulous person on the planet, “the one” even. Your mind is simply in a state of needing that person’s validation. The person who once loved and cared for you deeply, you crave their validation that once seemed so easily available. You must look at things objectively in this emotional state of hurt and rejection.
I do not advocate the advice on this site. You must follow my #2 recommendation and move on with your life. Do not do NC for a set amount of time and then reach out. I promise this only validates the dumper and makes them feel even better about their decision rather than second guessing it by never hearing from you again.
Good luck to all! I made it and I’ve learned from it and you all will too
^dont bother with this guy,
Bonjour! Comment va tu? Je suis bien.
Lol anyways eh my ex contacts me all the time, rolls are reversed now that 9 months has passed. He’s with another but still says he loves me and wants to be near me. It’s whatever at this point. Anyways I have a new man ;p someone I totally adore. He was my best friend while I was with this other guy and even closer after.
We kinda hit it off! I hope you all figure out what you want. Me? I’ve found something better than a man who will cheat and lie to me. Best of luck to you all!
I greatly enjoyed reading this post. It made me feel not so alone and is inspiring. You may not ever see this but I wonder how you are doing currently and want to know more about the perspective you have now on this when you look back to when you wrote this. It’s well written. I hope to know rather than feel so much someday. Thanks for sharing.
Hello everyone,
this is my first post on the site. It was great to find a place where to share experiences, feelings and especially not to feel alone in this situation.
I’m on my 5th day of NC and my girlfriend dumped me on 12th October. She stopped any contact just a few days after. As you can guess, I’m at Death’s Door stage because she has been pretty drastic: she has changed her number, she’s blocked me definitively on any social network site, IM etc…
She’s been living in another country (where she was born) since the beginning of September, to spend time with her mother and concentrate on preparing her final thesis. She’s coming back supposedly between next Febraury-March because of her graduation.
On 27th November, we would have celebrated our 4 year anniversary. Our relationship hasn’t been easy, it’s mainly my fault, because I’ve made several mistakes I regret every day of my life but we have always worked things out to improve, we have always relied on eachothers no matter what, because our love was true and deep.
We have been so happy together, I have been in other long term relationships before her but I had never been as much optimistic about future as I’ve been with her instead, I was really convinced we would have settled down forever.
The previous relationship I had before my ex came, had been really devastating on me, on my psychological balance and it had left multiple scars inside that have changed me. I’ve seeked professional help in fact, but results has been debatable. This has influenced in fact my relationship with my ex, I’ve tried to make her understand why I’ve had specific behaviours that I was working on overcoming, she did until she’s got tired of it I guess. Angry of it too, because in the end, she just became utterly bitter and mean toward me, toward the whole relationship we’ve had.
On the first week after we broke up, I was confused and still was trying to realize if it was really over or not. Of course I acted like many of us spontaneously do: trying to call her all the time, sending her pathetic and needy emails,I did what I could with my limited options because she’s far away and unreachable. I even offered to visit on December to talk face to face but she said she didn’t want to see me at all.
As desperate as I was, one night I got myself totally wasted and drove drunk back home. I did want to just speed up and crash into a wall, but fortunately a friend dissuaded me from doing such an idiotic thing. The next day, terrorist attacks happened in Paris and I was totally shocked and moved by it. I’ve read and heard so many stories that have made me ponder on my situation and how my problem and my pain are insignificant compared to the victim’s relatives and friends. I tried to imagine how it must feel to lose a wife, a girlfriend that way, how your life is suddenly broken and you couldn’t do anything to prevent it. That night I decided to write her a long email, it was different, it was a declaration of love and care, inspired by the sentiments for that tragedy. Her life is more precious than anything else in the world, whether we are together or not, I would always like her to be safe. And I wondered if she felt the same way thinking of these events, I am sure she has watched what happened. If she hasn’t replied or sent an email, it really means she does not feel the same, that my existence, my well being is not relevant anymore. This hit me hard.
On Sunday I wrote my final email, where I said I would not attempt at making contact anymore and left a door open if she wanted to return, but if that won’t be the case, I will move on. Then I started my NC period and damn it’s so so. I am very unstable right now, my mood is totally unpredictable. In some moments I feel fine and positive, I don’t think about her, but in others I find myself on the verge of crying, like in the shower, or at night where all thoughts gather and it’s diffucult to fall asleep.
I miss her like hell, it’s a void you can’t fill up. Believe me, I’m busy enough with my work, I go out with friends and I go to the gym, I haven’t stopped living but it’s not the same, I don’t seem to enjoy anything anymore, and if I don’t it’s just temporary.
I know there are girls who want to date me, I am not really interested in sleeping around right now, I do feel lonely but one night stands or short flings don’t relieve the sorrow trust me.
My ex is a person who needs attention constantly and this makes me seriously suspicious that she’s not seeing anyone else. I suspect she kept a guy in line before she broke up with me and there are some elements to consider. I am not a Facebook fan but she has a profile, I used to check it just a few times, never really cared much. After we split, I admitted I’ve been doing it more frequently and I’ve noticed this one guy (a good friend of her) he’s been posting motivational stuff about happiness and all, she has been writing quotes referring to him as well. Her relationship status is hidden but what a coincidence! The status on his Facebook page changed into “in a relationship” just on 13th October which is exactly the day after she dumped me. Is it a big coincidence uh?
Anyway, even if she has an affair with this guy, I keep being cool, because he’s not me. Of course I am jealous but nothing I can do now, if it’s a rebound relationship or not, we will see in time.
What I wish the most, is for me to be happy again, with or without her. After the 30 days of NC, I will decide where to head to. I won’t lie saying I want her back more than anything, but I gotta find closure, I gotta live my life.
I end my long entry with a Gibrain’s quote: “If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were”.
Good luck to everyone and let’s be strong.
I’m on day two on another no contact- I broke no contact after 5 days, through texting. Found out why he broke up with me- he was cheating, she’s two months pregnant, he moved her in. He says he doesn’t know if he loves her, but feels obligation to her due to the pregnancy, he says he’s happy with her, sometimes it gets bad though.
During the texting he begged me not to leave him, that I have treated the best he had ever been treated. That he misses me & loves me.
I was a mess, I gave him an ultimatum, her or me. He said he didn’t want to hurt anyone, that he loves me so much.
After a week of texting back and forth, me not eating or sleeping and falling in a deep depression, I a decision, I let him go.
I explained I will always love him, but I have come to realize that he already made his decision & I must accept that.
He wrote back,
"I will always love you too babe. Don’t let anyone tell you that you are not good enough. You have done nothing but good on my life. I miss you so much. Everything is so hard. "
That’s it, I felt relieved walking away, still hurts, but dat two no contact, he still passes through my mind, but I have gotten my appetite back, I have gotten out of bed and starting to live again. I would do anything to have him back, but he made a choice, he cheated and his love for me wasn’t a consideration. I’ve kept the texts, I’ll delete them eventually, I’m just not ready yet.
It’s great that you are finally moving on and you can live your life. This is possible now because you had to face the sad truth that he slept with somebody else and he’s having a baby now. You really have to accept that.
Honestly I think that in most cases these kind of news are the trigger that makes you move on, you don’t have choice.
I suggest you to delete the messages as soon as you can though. But watch out that he might come back to you again in the future if things with his girl don’t go well. For the fact that you told him you will love him forever, he will take for granted that he can turn to you anytime and welcome him with open arms.
My personal aim is to be able to live again and be happy, but the main one is to get her back PERMANENTLY like the site says. I know I can live without my ex, I know I will eventually stop believing it if it doesn’t happen, but hey I think I am entitled to fight for my cause right? At the same time, I am with both feet on the ground. Some things are just worth to fight for.