Hi ?
My relationship ended 3 months ago. We were together for almost 2 years, living together and with great hopes for the future.
The love started fading for her 6 months prior to the breakup , I saw the signs and I wasn’t able to act on fixing the issues that got us separated.
She broke up with me and i did the whole beg and plead thing, moved out the day after.
Went back to my family place in another town for a month to try not to breakdown. I was very supportive with her.
We never stopped talking for that month and we actually agreed to meet once I got back. And so we did. After that meeting she said she wanted to be friends and i saw it as a opportunity to rekindle.
I’ve done quite a lot since then , never taking the friend role …always pushing for more… and being rejected in some ways…in other ways getting closer and more intimate.
1 month and a half into this kind of limbo e set myself on i started breaking down. The rejection started hurting more and i felt I was having no self respect.
I was feeling the loss… Trying to get back together and allowing her to have me all she could.
So fucked up.
6 days ago i sent a message saying I needed a little time to think about my choices in life and if they are healthy or not for me.
NC since.
I dunno what happens next…
I don’t even know if this was the right thing to do.
Any insight?