My story(give me your opinions)

My name is Matin. I’m a 18-year-old boy. I had been in a relationship with my cousin for about 5 years. She was 4 years older than me. Also she lives in another city. So we’re far from each other. But she’s gonna come here. I acted too needy and clingy that she said she didn’t want to be in a relationship with me anymore. I had told her “who’s that guy on your instagram?” all the time. Now I realize how it was annoying. Also about 1month ago she decided to go on with another guy but she couldn’t. Then I red your articles and decided to change. But now I really miss her. And somehow I’m anxious about the age and her reaction to getting back. Because she was always telling me that I’m younger and she doesn’t want to be with me anymore. Anyway, I think all the problem is insecurity and acting needy because the age gape wasn’t an issue at the beginning. I acted like a child. I cried for almost everything, begged her, and a lot of things. Help me ,please. I’m confused and also I miss her too much.

First thing that springs to mind is that you are only 18. This will likely not be your last relationship.

But if you are wanting to try then show her how much you have changed when she comes. Don’t act needy or anxious just play it cool.

But I really fell in love with her and I don’t want to be with someone else.
Yeah I mustn’t act needy. Thanks for advice.

If she’s your cousin, shouldn’t you think of her as a friend, not a romantic interest?

Why exactly??