Hello, it’s me again. I think I should create an own thread for this matter. So I finished NC on day 31 . First day, first contact through FB, he actually replied to my “I have something to share” text, and was quite curious about the whole thing. I thought things went well when I told him I got a few bruises practcing riding a bike, he asked about it as if he worried about my injuries. The 2nd day we talk, he was out of control. He started talking a lot about his past few days. How he didn’t take care of himself. Staying at school from 6AM to 9PM studying even when no class, neglecting his looks (he usually quite well-dressed), risking his study by submitting assignments late and getting to class late (not like him at all, his study is very important to him), refurbishing his motorbike over and over. His mom told him that he has gotten thinner and he hated that. He also told he was wearing the shirt I gave him the whole day, even wore it going to the hospital (I asked were he sick and he just bluntly replied that he went to get some medicine). He still acts happy and crazy with his friends, but only to me that he turns… moody. I have always been the only one that he could complain about his day to, the only one that he showed his weak side to. I was upset at the fact that he damned himself but kept my calm anyway. I asked him why were him treating himself badly like that and he acted like not getting my question. And “why don’t you tell this to your friends and family, why it has to be me?” and he said “It’s nice to have someone to hear me babble. Having the occasion that you talk to me, I don’t even know since when I talk this much”. I got a feeling that all those things he did have somewhat to do with his feelings towards me and the breakup.
I asked a guy friend of mine what was that all mean, he said my ex might tricking me into getting back to him, or he simply has a weak mind, cannot cope up with the breakup. That he wants me. But I denied, saying not until he admits it, I don’t want to put my hope up.
3rd day, we had ‘empty’ conversation, but we kept on going anyway until midnight. Full of sadness somehow, in every words we talk, even though we were discussing funny memes. I feel like both of us are mourning our love, but no one dares to say… Or that’s just me. I feel like he’s being dissatisfied with life. I want him to open up and be honest to his feelings. Any ideas on this guys?
P/S: his friends say lately, he’s being emotionless or numb…