So my relationship with my ex has progressed for a while now. We’ve been broken up for 8 months, during which i tried ways of getting her back but it seemed to do nothing. Then, by eventually being less present online (She is long-distanced) she started sorta coming to me and eventually we talked again. She was very friendly and said she was worried about bothering me (She is very shy and has extreme anxiety)
But after that she came to a live stream my friends and I did and even talked with us all for a while too. She had a great time, loved it, praised everyone there constantly (Except me) and she also no longer seemed to laugh at my jokes. She used to all the time. Not anymore. Then after that stream I fear it may be ending. She isn’t chasing me anymore and she is much less active on social media. Apparently she has had some recent thing very positive happening in her life that she is very excited for (I think she may have gotten a huge job and is moving to San Francisco, which is still in her state)
I am really worried she may have been interested again, but that I was too dull and seemed too disinterested (I didn’t want to give myself away) that she is just completely passed me now.
However, I have one final ray of hope maybe? I am visiting her state in a month for one week. That is how we first met each other in person. (We knew each other online for a year, during which time I crushed on her) I told her, once again trying to act very casual and indifferent while doing so, and she said “Oh cool!” and that she may be in San Francisco at that time, but if she is not and she is in her hometown, which is where I will be near, she is down to hang out. I don’t know if she assumes this means with multiple people, but I guess it’s sort of a good thing that she even wants to hang out? She could have said no, or lied about not being available.
I still doubt she actually will be available but maybe I have some sort of shot? Where do I go from here? do I talk to her a bit leading up to my trip? Do I devote all time to working on myself and my image so I am attractive during the trip? I’m really worried. This is most likely not going to go anywhere and I think my chances may finally be dead 