Anyway I’ll type my reply again! ![]()
Hey hey it’s been awhile again! I’ve took some break of here because of my exam . How are you doing babe? I hope everything is going well. We just have to stay positive and have fate that things will work out eventually the way it should be. :* Anyway you are right! Your ex is obviously just moving on ‘physically’ , and I honestly don’t think that he achieved what you’ve achieved emotionally. Because for you and me, we’ve went through that ‘super devastated’ period, and we’ve learned to pick ourselves up from there , we’ve learned so much things on a new perspective and we’ve grown up for ourselves in so many ways :') It’s a super tough roller coaster ride… but always before we see rainbow , we have to go through storm.
So I’ve learned to accept the fact that, this separation, whether temporary or not is gonna benefit both of us. It’s funny why we humans always only start to realise so many things only when we are out of the situation .
That’s when we don’t let our emotional self control our true self. We’ll realise how stupid we are… but at the end of the day, the conclusion is, only WE can save ourselves. And the hardest battle is not a battle with someone else but it’s a battle with our own self. But I’m glad that both you and me,have gotten so far together! :') We’re still learning of course but we’re moving forward for sure <3
That day I’ve read a quote that breaks my heart : The difference is, I’ve actually poured my heart out trying to save US , and you just said ‘Sorry’.
Damn
This feeling is weird, sometimes I actually hate him for giving up on us, I mean man! we’ve build so much together… we’ve been through so much… we actually grew up together…how can you can cut of me from your life and treat me ( a person you’ve spent 3 years with) don’t exist at all? He was trying so hard to push me away. I knew it’s my fault loving him too much and that’s why it hurt so much for me. But that’s all in the past now, I’ve see things more clearly. I’m happy that we were once happy, I never regret fighting for us I really didn’t :') Maybe after we experience other parts of our lives , we’ll eventually find each other again if we’re meant to be.
I seriously feel that your ex is just ‘covering’ himself up. He thought that was the only solution. And there’s still so many chance that it’s just a rebound. The thing is if he haven’t choose to be more mature internally, even if he eventually broke up with his new gf , and wanted to get back with you, maybe that time you won’t consider any more because you realise he doesn’t deserve you. He’s just acting like an immature kid. Also things may turn the other way round, and you both may end up finding each other again (the new you) and fall back in love, stronger than ever. But just like you told me, things will unfold naturally as time goes on. And we just have to continue loving ourselves, think positive and really start living life for ourselves. Life is too short to worry about stupid things, what is meant to be is meant to be. ’ If two people are meant to be, they’ll always find their way back to each other , nomatter how far they’ve wandered. ’ When we really start focusing on ourselves, that’s when positive things will happen! Funny but this is just how the universe works. God always answer prayers when we least expect it, he knows when we’re ready
I guess it’s just a part of life we have to go through.
Argh the way your ex is acting all ‘stranger’ to you is just an act of an immature kid. He was so blinded that he thought he’s finally in an awesome stage in his life ,little did he know that the worst will come when his ‘honeymoon stage’ run off it’s course.
Anyway…Did you reply to him?
Oh andI have some updates with my ex! Before my exams, he messaged me and ask how was my preparation going on. We chatted a little and he even helped me with a maths question! He’s good in calculus so I ended up asking him for help. He end up asking me if I needed him to wake me up? Lol? I told him I may not even sleep,and he told me that I should and even a short nap will help a lot, based on his own experience. The next morning, I woke up early as I couldn’t really sleep anyways… and HE CALLED ME! He asked if I had woken up , we chatted a bit, he gave me some exam tips, and he wished me all the best. And he told me his morning class ‘suddenly’ cancelled. He sounded… so sexy being sleepy (haha ><) and he even called me by the name he called me when we were together! :') After that I cut it off because I need to go prepare. He just sounded so sweet
And I really never thought that he will actually called, and I rethink and rethink because I thought it was just a dream XD Or maybe he was not sober? o.o But he doesn’t drink… So after my exam I updated him about how it goes and he just reply me with a ‘like’ …and no chats after… -_- LOL WHAT? IS this the so called hot and cold behaviour? ![]()
Anyway I’m confused, but I know what I should focus not so I’m not letting my mind wander too much. But I’m glad and really happy that he made an effort to wish me, and I’m already very happy with that
The weird thing is he changed one of his prof pic in social media to a one a took for him and uploaded a photo when we travel together? Maybe it doesn’t mean anything but maybe it’s just good to see that he went through his pictures… I guess that means he went through our pictures? Maybe he does miss ‘Us’ … or there’s actually no hidden meaning or whatsover hmmm ohh well WHATEVER ![]()
Nomatter what I’m glad that I didn’t give upon myself and now I’m finally really moving forward :') I hope you’re staying strong too babe! I hope to still chat with you always! ^^ Did you receive my email? ![]()