I messaged her brother after a while of NC and said
“I love her and i still want her but I certainly dont need her”
she has just given birth to our daughter so life is a whirlwind for her right now, and there are other mitigating circumstances which mean she is unable to contact me even if she wanted to
I fear by saying I want her ive ruined my progress in NC, I thought saying I dont need her what send a strong message.