I guess you’ll never understand why he left you, so don’t dwell on it! You have to let those kind of thoughts go for your own welfare. Sounds like you’ve been taking back men who aren’t good for you over and over. You have to break the cycle and maybe try to understand why you do it. Just believe there’s a guy out there who would love you properly and want to be with you forever, so continue going on dates! Here’s an idiom: “Don’t be sad about not being with someone who is happy being without you”. You have to get it in your head that your ex doesn’t want to be with you, period! It’s finished, period! By emailing him and getting no response, it makes you once again, feel sad and bad about yourself. Please stop torturing yourself. Stop thinking about him. Your the only one hurting! He doesn’t care. You have to toughen up and get on with your life! Sorry to be so harsh, but you must wake up to facts.
Wishing you and your children better times ahead…
Hi, so as I suspected I ran into my ex this morning. He made it a point for me to see him. After I closed my trunk and ready to get back in the car he yelled Hi. I did turn and said Hi and he processed to tell me he bought a truck then asked me how the girls were. I said they are great.I looked at him and said I have to, it was nice seeing you again and congratulations. It was very odd because we locked eyes for a bit. It looked like he wanted to say something else but didnt. I will say that I felt good afterwards because I was my happy self and had no problems talking other than my body shaking like crazy. Anyway I am not sure what he was thinking being he has not spoken to me in 2 months nor respond to any of the text I sent in the past. What do you think?
I think it doesn’t matter one bit what he was thinking! And for your own good, you shouldn’t care. Please stop doing this to yourself and your children. Don’t even consider taking him back (if he ever suggested it) because it would be the same drama over again. He will run away from you again at some point. It has to stop! You have to move on with your life and maybe find a nice man who would love and care for you and the girls. Stop hurting yourself!
I know and I am moving on. I am doing a lot better and I guess I was not expecting him to say a word to me. I start my therapy sessions again this week to break my issues as to why I take my exes back. I truly do not even want a relationship right now until I can fix my personal issues. I am focusing on my career and girls. I tend to analyze if you haven’t noticed lol. I have no intention in going backwards anymore 
Thank you for your support and helping me open my eyes!