I don't know what to think. Please Help!!

Hi,

Please help me with my situation.

I had a 6 month relationship. Everything seemed perfect to me. We even talked about a future together, having kids, get married. I worked some days out of the city so we had these serious discussions by chat but we agreed to wait 15 days more to solve this issues by person until I come back to the city. During these 15 days, everyday was worst. And for me he was overreacting the things. See these were the reasons:

  1. There were 2 guys from work who were trying to have a thing with me, ask me to go out and everything. Their messages were always a problem to my boyfriend. But as I was always honest, I told him everything about it. There were also 2 exes of mine who still tried to contact me for the same reason, to go out, etc. But I can say nothing happened with anybody.

  2. Sometimes I had this low self-esteem (I won’t be a good mom or good wife, about my overweight, and finally during February there were staff reduction on my company so I was very depressed to think about losing my job).

So I think he was “tired” of my insecurities and for sure my insecurities caused his insecurities about me and our relationship.

Finally, as soon as I got back to the city we talked about everything but he was not the same. Then he told me he needed some time because he was confused about his feelings. Apparently, he started to have conversations with his ex girlfriend.

During that time I was talking with his two best friends. They were on my side and they talked with him about me. I even wrote him a letter with apologies and asking for a one more chance. One of his friends gave it to him. After that, he broke up with me. He told me he doesn’t trust me anymore, he doesn’t love anymore. And that I used his friends to get close to him. He was mean and cruel by the way. But I’m sure he was just hurt and very angry to treat me like that. (Normally he is very gentleman and kind).

So my question is… Do you think I still have a chance to get my ex back? I have already started with NC for two weeks now. I try to follow the plan. But is very hard to think that it is over and maybe I won’t get my ex back anymore in this life. I talked to his friends again today. They looked for me because they were worried about me. They told me that at the beginning my ex was mad with them too but yesterday they solve their issues. But they told me that my ex is doing ok. And he said it was a good decision to break up with me.

I love him so much. Please give some advice.

Any advice!! Please!!!

So. update!!

Sometimes I feel I lost him forever. That is so sad. But at the same time I think I can get him back. Now, I’m 24 NC days.

A week ago he texted me to say that he wants to see me because he has some stuff to give me but I know he was talking about my stuff. That was so sad. I think he wants to move on.

I just said I couldn’t see him because I´m out of town.

Hey people here, what do you think?