For the past few weeks, all I have been able to think about is my ex and how things are going to go when I reach out to him. My NC period will be done in the next week or so, and it’s making me so so nervous. Lately, I’ve been thinking about the future, us, and I just want everything better. I am hopeful, though I’m not sure I should be after everything regarding the break up.
In the past, we were together for about 3 years, then were broken up for roughly two years before getting back together last January, and we really started talking about through a mutual friend, then snapchat. That lead to flirting, which lead to texting, which lead to us back together. I feel that I could try to go down that road again, but it makes me nervous. I was thinking maybe I could send him a text recommending this film that is similar to one of his favorites.
The conversation would go something like “Have you seen _____?”
(I’m doubt that he has) “Whenever you’re free, you should watch it! It’s definitely not the original, but it gives a pretty cool twist. Made me think of you.”
Something along those lines. After the way things were left off, I don’t know what to do. I was begging and talking about how terrible I felt, and then I just stopped out of nowhere. We didn’t talk, but then I caved on Christmas and just wanted to say happy holidays. I feel weird and a bit awkward just sending a message or snap like nothing ever happened (especially after the way I acted…embarrassing), but it is very unlikely that he will be the first one to reach out after everything.
Thoughts?
