Alright guys, lets do this.
So by midday we started texting to arrange the details. I suggested we could go to this place we discovered together on the way to camping about a month into our relationship, and I thought he would be thrown off about it but he actually thought it was a good idea! 
The weather was a bit crappy but we were really lucky and it barely rained 
thanks universe.
At first it was a bit awkward. I was trying to be a bit playful and he was a bit serious. He took the tshirt I gave him with him and I was all happy 
It really suits him. The place was an hour away and on the way there as i said it was awkward he put music. Then we went to a coffee shop midway and got talking and it wasn’t awkward anymore.
I told him how he shouldnt miss classes or he wont be able to get into college. That there is only 3 weeks left, he should let the nights out for later! It’s only three weeks! He started looking down and smiling in embarrassment and I laughed like ahah I am lecturing you! See how the world changes 
eheh. Then we went to his motorcycle again. I said "Let me tell you something. Your bike is beautiful!"He smiled and I talked about when he bought it and how marveled I was at it when I saw it. It was a great moment for us (we were together at the time). He laughed and was happy with our conversation. He then said if I wanted to see more bikes like his there was gonna be this event next week so I could go see it. Then I realized its a paid event so I was confused if he was inviting me. Lol
We got on the bike, on the way to that place we didnt stop talking. And the view was breathtaking! We talked about classes, work, his problems at home, my problems with friends, etc etc.
We got there and sat near the water. Really beautiful scenery. That is one of my favorites places, ever. I was going to put some really nice songs that are similar to the singer we listened to together but I forgot. It would have created such a great moment and new memorie. It hurts thinking I missed such a great chance! We were a bit quieter but were talking nicely. I then noticed we were all light and smiling and stuff and I kind of regret it now cause if we kept it like that it could have been great, but I talked about me “ignoring” him. He got a bit mad said he wasnt gonna talk about it but that he didnt like that i insisted on the phone although he understands, says i was 2 meters away from him, etc etc.Also said it shouldnt have affected him like that, but that week everything was affecting him (which hurt). And said again that if I had something to explain I could explain, I didnt need to just get up and walk away when his friends came with fear they would talk and tell him I was there with a guy friend. I also told him I was surprised he was the one making the assumptions now, that one day he passed by me really close and didnt greet me and I never even brought it up although it hurt me at the time. So… I dont know… I’m a bit confused about how all this came out.
Anyway we went away and on the highway, on the bike, it was a bit cold. I told him that and he said i could come closer. I was pressing against him but still holding on the sides. Then he asked if it was better I said a bit but still cold. A bit later he grabbed my hand and pulled me and said “do it like this” I was OMG! I came the rest of the way COMPLETELY, TOTALLY, GLUED TO HIM! Hugged to him! My hands on his belly and chest, totally hugged to him! He even put himself a bit back. If there was an inch of my body that wasnt touching him, its because it wasnt facing him! LOL. It was SO great… I hope it’s a sign. The ride was great. One thing he hated was I would comment on his driving when we were together. Now I just dont. I told him to go on and drive freely and he was so happy, he did this tight curve, asked me what I thought of it, I said great! I loved it you can keep at it He seemed surprised. The rest of the way he had quiet moments at least I didnt even knew what to say xD I was in heaven! Riding on his motorcycle hugging him. WTF is my life
Ok getting too excited and long here. We got to my house and he asked if I wanted him to take me to my girl friends house, we were having a dinner. It was not on his way AT ALL. I got all happy again, was going up to get some stuff and remembered to ask if he wanted to come inside. He said no its ok, I said c’mon come and he did. He was uncomfortable 
my mom and her bf were there and because she is mad at him for breaking up I was afraid she didnt treat him right. She also called him when we were on the bike and i was doubting the same thing. I gave him some dessert i’ve made and also some to take home to his parents. Then we got going, I hugged him again on the bike and asked if he wanted me to sit back he just said not to move. We were going fast so I really couldnt move now.
We got there I didn’t know what to do. He gave me two kisses on the cheeks normally, said to say something if I needed anything. I said yeah, say something yourself. And then asked if he wanted to come with us when I arrange the dinner with friends at my house and that we would then go to the bar I once told him about. He said he cant next week and the other “we’ll see” like he isnt sure he wants to go I guess.
Off he went I texted apologizing about insisting that he came to my house cause he seemed uncomfortable. Next day my mom decided to call him he didnt pick up. An hour or so later he asked if everything was ok cause he had a call from my mom. I said yes and asked about his ride for today and that my dinner was great. He answered like 7 hours later apologizing for not answering, talked about the ride how 2 new guys went and asked wht my mom wanted, or if I was the one to call. I said she wanted to apologize for anything cause she thought he seemed uncomfortable and that he was welcome here. Also that I didn’t know she called and I didnt ask her to do it. Then I asked about that bike event, if he had someone to go with, since no one of his friends has a bike like his and since he talked about it I would like to, so if he wanted company he could say. Still no answer for now.
Well what I take away from here is
- He wanted to be with me just because. No talk of relationship or what happened about me “ignoring” him
- He might still like me and is keeping options open between us since he knows very well I still like him (I told him 2 weeks ago on the phone) and still behaved like this on the bike and etc. Also he said “if i had something to explain” like somehow we still have this thing between us that we want to be together and like each other so if theres something I was worried he wouldnt like I could tell him. Otherwise he would just say “you dont need to worry cause we broke up and you dont have to justify yourself to me cause theres nothing between us anymore”
- I don’t know if he still thinks I saw him that day but he seemed to have put that behind.
Now I want to try to get closer, take some time, but invite him to do stuff with my friends or something like that but not pressuring him or it will all go down the drain. If he doesnt answer well to that well I might just really have a talk with him cause I’m not gonna let time pass until he finds someone and then I’ll regret letting things just slip away.
Sorry for all this text and thank you for anyones support that comes and for your opinions xx