First and foremost, I apologize for the long essay I’m about to write but I figure it would be helpful knowing the whole story. My boyfriend and I had been together for almost a year and a half. When we first met he quickly had feelings for me but I wanted to be just friends because I was still getting over a previous relationship and I didn’t see him that way. Eventually we got to talking more and met up in school often (hes in law school and I was in undergrad) and my feelings changed. I eventually told him how I felt and soon after we started going out. Although I was his first everything, he wasn’t my first. We were very much in love and the first few months were great. We are very similar down to very specific things and very compatible.
Unfortunately, 4 months into our relationship my father had a terrible accident which left him completely paralyzed. My boyfriend had been completely supportive and loving towards me during this time. My mom spent most of her time by my dads side in the hospital so I was left alone a lot and it really made me resentful and bitter.
Around 7 months into our relationship, we were constantly fighting about small things every other day which were mostly initiated by me. It got so bad that at one point he calls me and tells me that maybe we should break up. He came over to talk to me at the end of the day and we ended up not breaking up but he was honest with me and told me that the constant fighting was pushing him away. I took that seriously and after that we never really had any more fights.
After that, I became very insecure in my relationship. I constantly feared that he would break up with me. Although that was always in the back of my mind, we went about doing our thing and being with each other. Since he’s in law school we would spend a day a week together. Unfortunately my father passed away in September which was a bit hard on me. He was the one that took me to the hospital and the one that held me when I found out. He was also by my side when we had his service.
We went on to celebrate our birthdays, anniversary and the holidays together. Around this time, the topic of him being unhappy came up twice. I was willing to talk about this with him but he kept saying how he wasn’t sure why he was unhappy but that he wasn’t as happy as he was in the beginning of our relationship. I assumed he just missed the honeymoon stage and we kept sweeping it under the rug.
About a week ago, we went out to have dinner at one of our usual places. Our day was cut short because he was really busy and overwhelmed with school work. Then we went back to my place to watch a movie. After the movie I noticed he was a bit off. He kept telling me that school was stressing him out. When I walked him out he ended up telling me that he was feeling unhappy and that he wanted to take a break. As he told me these things, he started crying and just holding me (he cried more than I did).
After that day, we didn’t speak for a few days. I was giving him and myself some space and hoped that he would realize that he made a mistake. I ended up checking in on him yesterday and then I went on to try one last time to get him back. He went on to tell me that the reason why he broke up with me was because I was being negative all the time about everything. He said that he felt like he couldn’t be as invested in our relationship as he was when we first got together and that too made him unhappy. School was also a big reason too. He said that although he loved spending time with me he noticed I was more excited to see him than he was to see me and he saw something wrong with that. He told me that it was hard breaking up with me but that it was for the best. He also said that he loved me as a friend but no longer had romantic feelings for me. He said that we would need time apart but that he would really want to be friends and eventually be able to hang out and that I will always hold a special place in his heart.
This has been so painful to process because I feel like I lost the love of my life. I just wanted to know if there is any hope to get him back?
AGAIN sorry for the painfully long summary! 
now looking back at it I just didn’t like the person I became. My dad had a very tough and sad upbringing and he had a very negative outlook on life. He wasn’t exactly the best father towards me and unfortunately it rubbed off on me as I grew up. We never had a good relationship so all these events didn’t hit me as hard as it should have.