I’m a 34 year old female , my ex is a 22 year old male . We had met at work , and at the time I wasn’t even thinking about dating anyone , but it ended up happening. It turns out I was his first ever girlfriend, he had crushes and stuff in the past but never got farther than that . We dated for two years , were making plans of things to do in the future , like go on vacation , or what kind of place we wanted to live together . Around December of last year is when things started to get rough , not physical , just felt like we argued more because I admit I felt hurt he didnt want to spend new years eve with me or how despite being together for two years I was still excluded from a family tradition . That his mother even invited me to days before the event . Then things started to be okay again in January and I thought we were moving past how December went , but I was wrong . About halfway through February he broke up with me, and I was blindsided by the sudden break up .
I will admit , I did not handle it well at all . I did try the no contact for a time, but it was exceptionally difficult since at the time we both worked at the same place . Then I didn’t get better , I did the pleading , the bargaining , sleeping with him saying it’s just sex , I honestly must have looked desperate to him and unappealing. I have tried starting different get your ex back programs , I fell prey to the psychics who give promises of getting your ex back and spent money I shouldn’t have on that. I wrote him long texts , a letter , bargaining with him in hopes changing his mind of us breaking up. Even tonight as I write this , I tried one more time asking him to give us another chance and he once more has said no. Truthfully I’m scared to even try texting him again in case he’s decided to just block me .
I’ve had family and friends say the oh there’s other fish in the sea , you’ll find someone better , things others say that think will make you feel better. I’m just at a loss for what I should do . I want to get back with my ex , I’m not afraid to be single , I just really believe we were a good couple together, but I don’t even know what to do anymore .