Day 20 of NC
This week has been hard. While on holiday this weekend… a young lady in my group attempted to take things to the next level but I shut it down. I told her I was still in love with my ex and described the situation. She started crying and went on to say “Every guy I’ve been with has cheated on me and lied to me. You break up with your ex because you loved her too much. The one guy I like is still in love with his ex, FML ” Today, the young lady emailed me a long letter about how she felt. I feel bad but I dont want her emotionally or even physically. Im not ready.
After all of that, all I can think of is contacting my ex. I wanna call her now and tell her I’m in love with her and how in these last 20 days Ive made alot of changes. Crazy what you can accomplish when you put your mind to it… These changes have put me in a happier place but in the back of my mind, I hope one day they will help me rebuild with her.
Sigh.
Counting down till Dec 2nd.