Broke up 2 months ago

Me (26) and my gf(23) just broke up 2 months ago. We were together for 3years +. We were best friends and soul mates and we even had plans for marriage. She had to go overseas for studies for a year, and having done LDR i thought this was going to easier than before. However, in the span of 2 months when we were away, I’ll admitted say that I got a bit too needy, been asking for her attention and was not catering to her needs, since she was tired from school and internships. I questioned her commitment, and she decided to break up, 2 months ago. I didnt expect a break up totally. She said she still wanted to be friends after the break up, but she has been cold, and I dont know how we can just be friends right after this. And still after 2 months, I am struggling to cope with life without her. Weekends are the worst usually, as i can drown myself in work in the weekdays. I try to meet up with friends as much as possible, but she has always been my source of emotional support. I am still keeping close contact with her parents as I have always seen them as my parents. I have been trying to get my life back together, I have been busy with work, and starting a start up on the side. I guess I am just emotionally weak without her. I really dont see how I can live my life without her because she means alot to me. I have been sending little gifts over to her, hoping that they will accompany and tide her over while she is there for the rest of the 6 months. We do not talk now, although I have sent her a letter, telling about how I felt that perhaps I am not the best person to love her, on where we went wrong, and how I still wish her the very best. Should I restart NC right now after 2 months? We were extremely close, and its just crazy to think that she would not be part of my life again. I have lost my best friend, my soul mate and my life partner.

Seems like there’s more reasons why she wanted to break up with you than what you wrote. But yeah, do the no contact for at least 3 months…