My girlfriend broke up with me yesterday. We’re both 18, been with each other for 2 years. A lot has happened during those years. We have had our fights and our breaks. We spent a whole year together 24/7, no contact with others just us. No hobbies, no friends no nothing. During that year things really went out of control. We had a break, and I got really hurt by the things she said; like she didn’t love me anymore, and she didn’t want to give me false hope and be in a relationship with me. Her two friends, had talked her into a mad negative way of thinking and that ruined our relationship. We got back together after 2-3 weeks.
I felt things were still off and I was afraid that she’d do the same thing again. So I started partying, and my “bestfriend” got me real drunk one night and I cheated on my girlfriend. I kissed someone else, but I was so drunk (2nd time drinking alcohol ever - I passed out and don’t remember much) that I couldn’t remember anything, and apparently I said to my ex that I had sex with another girl… Which wasn’t true. My friends that were there confirmed that nothing more than kissing had happened.
Anyways, she got really upset and I did anything I could do to win her back, and I slowly did. She tried to forgive me, and it kind off happened. I was being really mad at her even though she accepted me back, fighting her all the time, and I did so much… And I hurt her really bad. I’ve told her several times I wanted to break up and one day on the phone she said “I agree, we should break up”.
I got confused and said I didn’t mean it like that and I cried on the phone told her I’d change and everything. We took a break and she started contacting me. We met each other for 2 days, and we started arguing again. The break only lasted like 2 weeks, maybe less.
And today I made a huge mistake. She told me she didn’t love me anymore, she didn’t want to be with me, she was happy without me etc. And I begged her, literally cried and everything to get her back. And she shouted and yelled at me and told me to leave, while her friend was behind her telling me that I was a douche and that she deserves someone so much better than me. Her friend seriously smiled and was happy about all this. I begged her and begged her for no-use. I told her before I went out the door that we should do a NC for 2 weeks, and if she didn’t want to be with me after that I’d leave her alone forever… And she said “Yeah sure, I still won’t be with you after 2 weeks. My opinion won’t change. I’m doing better without you and you know that”.
I’ve honestly never been so pathetic in my entire life, I tried really hard getting her back and she was soooo mad at me, she yelled and told me that she doesn’t trust me anymore, and that she’s better without me. I swear that her friends are being complete negative idiots and making her believe that she’s doing so much better without me even though when I know that my girlfriend, or now my ex… Still loves me…
What should I do? COMPLETE NC ? No contact at all? Like if she writes to me on facebook, I shouldn’t reply? I shouldn’t post pictures on snapchat on “mystory” or “instagram” and stay completely away from girls? What am I supposed to do… It’s so hard, because I really love her with all of my heart, and she’s the only one I want…
Please help me…