3 months ago I started dating a girl. from the beginning she was insecure and it took me a few weeks to convince her to go on a date with me. this girl was special for me. 10 years ago a was not able to start a conversation with her, to shy. but i was sure that time that i would like to date her one day. So 10 years later, it would actually happen. She is a girl that likes sports just like me, both runners & cyclists.But for the first date i wanted something special. I took het for a course wakeboarding. we had a great time and the week after we had our second date. It was a hot day and we went sailing, she never did that and I can sail a sailboat, but just the basic stuff. we swam and kissed! for the third date we went cyling, visiting the start of the tour the france 2019. all went good untill we road back home. I felt with my bike by hitting a bump on the road & i took het width me. She broke her wrist and some items like the glass of het phone where broken I had a lot off scratches but ok, i was ok. We road home (50km) not knowing her wrist was broken. instead of going home we went to my place, we took a shower, i geve her an erotic massage en we went afterwards for a pizza.
the next they she went to the hospital, they told her, your wrist is broken, you cannot work for 4 weeks and also she could forget her cycling vacation 2 weeks later. we solved that bu I felt responsible for all of it. so the next dates I picked her up and helpt her were necessary and had sex. Then we both went on vacation and sent texts almost every day. after the vacation I saw her again and cooked for her and she could not stay of me. Later we watched a movie in my bedroom and … you know.
Then 3 days later she wants to talk to me. Then we had a lovely evening but at the end she says. I don’t know how to say this, but you are to nice for me. i do not know of this is friendship of not. I need time. 2 days later I told her I feel responsible fo whats happend with the accident I will give you a lift to the hospital. in the afternoon we had a nice talk, but i decided that I wil never initiate contact from now on. That evening the texted me that she went running and how that went… the next day we kept sending messages and i saw er at a small festival. we kissed.
2 days later I called her to ask how her exam went, 30 minutes she talked to me about every detail of her day. At the end I asked what we will do next weekend. her friend invited me to come to an event. After the conversation she texted me that she thinks that she sees me as a friend and needs time. So i gave her A week. Then I told her we need to talk. we went for a walk en talked about the situation. she said again that i was to nice for her and that there where some points where she struggled with. like I talked to loud in the hospital, but she said, Its also my fault i also do that. and when i was choosing an icecream i was to childish. ( don’t know why) . she told me that she is looking for the perfect boyfriend that is according her list that she has. and that she has doubts. at the end we decided to try it one more time 1 week late, at the end she wanted to kiss me but i rejected (herpess virus that ive got from her) . then that week we kept sending messages about what we could do as date. and on friday 2 days before the date she sends me a text message that we cannot continue. ok, We talked about that and I left her alone.
2 days later I see that she Is still using my netflix account. Weird situation, but what do i have to do?
I just started no contact.