Me and my Ex where together 18 months and we where perfect together, after 6 months we moved in together and i started with depression, I couldn’t see my kids due to my Ex wife, Job issues and i had large amount of Debt. this which made my depression worse we broke up in March this year and got back together, Then again in August we broke again but again got back together. Overtime my depression put a strain on us, i become selfish angry and would say horrible things, i tried to get help but kept hitting a brick wall. On the last break up i said to her, “if i was any other man i would have walked away along time ago and that she will never find another man to make her happy”. As a result she ended our relationship and its been no contact from her since.
I’ve emailed her everyday for 26 days some times 6 or 7 times a day, trying to explain what i had done, how guilty i felt and that i have changed. I’m blocked by her via everything from Facebook to phone, she told me to move on as she as. But i hate myself so much for what i did, but it has helped me change from who i was.
Before we broke up She said that she will never get the feelings and love that i gave her from anyone else.
She as friends and family hate me and say i’m not a real man just an emotional abuser and should be in prison. They’re also saying not to take me back - ever!! I’ve no way of showing her how much I’ve changed.