Does snapchat stories count as contact? I didn’t message or anything just put them up
He said he doesn’t want a long distant relationship. He didn’t say it for your benefit, he did it for his own benefit because that’s how he feels about it. It wasn’t an “excuse”, it was a “reason” and he told you. Because you were having difficulties in grad school was not a reason to treat him badly. You’ve apologized and that’s it. He still doesn’t want a long distant relationship, so let it go and quit hanging on hoping he might change his mind. You can’t fix it and he doesn’t want to. There might come a day when he might want to give you another chance, but it’s very doubtful. For now you need to focus on your studies and stop dwelling on him. If you’re putting up Snapchat stories to get his attention, you’re just showing your neediness and desperation. Stay no contact and focus on yourself!
I know you’re right, but I’m just coping my own way. It’s hard when you’re life is all school and nothing fun is distracting me. I know what you’re saying, I am an avid runner and I study and read, it doesn’t mean I don’t have my moments where I think about it. I’m trying, but his birthday passed and that probably hurt me the most. I couldn’t even be there for him. I made mistakes and I’m learning. I’m trying to repeat how it’s the best for me, but when time is the factor it’s probably worse than hating someone or seeing them cheat on someone, because then you’re stuck wondering what could have been if it was the right time. Yeah maybe I did it for attention, but I think I did it mostly to have some kind of hope that he still thinks about us too.