I honestly don’t want to break anyone but it’s been seven months!
Seven long hard, cold and excruciating months. The pain and hurt that built up for months to the point of total breakup also have added to this, this horrid feeling.
We nearly reconciled, he wanted me back.
It was only a matter of weeks ago he wanted me to be more chatty.
When I did open up again, I heard nothing from him for almost a week…
I blocked him at this point to regain any power I held…
It has been ten days since I blocked him, initially I felt quite euphoric and liberated knowing it was me who ended communication. I even have a new man who treats me with nothing but respect and love.
But I can not shake the feeling of love for the boy who treat me like an idiot for so long. I know I would never let myself feel the way I did pror, or be treat in this way from now on. I just feel absolutely ridiculous for still being totally and absolutely in love with my ex after such a long time.
What is wrong with me, he has probably absolutely moved on to another and feeling fine!
Why is it so hard? I have never felt like this in my life! I am considering just ending it all!!! I have been to the gp multiple times, I have medication and support! I just feel everyone is sick of hearing the same thing!
Is it fair to ask someone to change… Even if it is hurting you so much?
Is it fair to contact them after so long? And expect a loving supportive reply?
I’m loosing a uphill battle here, need a little guidance.