Just started no contact

Hi, i was with my ex for 13 months everything was great, when she ended it she said she just felt really different, but i think the real creasonwas that i was going out with my mayes tto much drinking at the weekends, and not spending enough time with her doing thung and it pushed us apart
Weve been apart 5 weeks and obviously ive been panicking and non stop.texting and being desperate and paranoid, accusing her of all sorts… now she is back meeting up with her ex before me, and i think i just helped push her towards him by the way i acted
But now i have just started the no contact but i worry shes going to get back with her ex and really forget about me and lost all feelings now sges back seeing him

@Adamers - First of all, cut down or stop drinking. Start no contact immediately since you’ve been texting and annoying her too much. Of course she won’t forget you, but that doesn’t mean she wants to reconcile. Drinking and all that goes with it, ruins many relationships. Stop contacting her!