My ex and I were together for 2 years and he out of the blue left me and said he just didn’t have those feelings anymore and that a lot of it had to do with my drinking habits. I had lost a parent this year and didn’t handle it well. I have since gone no contact, after a few ugly begging back episodes right after the breakup. I have been 45 days completely sober since the split and feel much better about myself and realize that I did do more harm than good with my habits. How do I go about showing him that I have changed and take ownership of my mistakes? I am not in any form of contact with him on social media (I blocked him for my own sanity).
He lost his feelings for you due to your drinking and maybe other reasons. I understand some drinking due to an emotional situation, but apparently you carried to extremes. If you have family members who have issues with drinking, you might be an alcoholic in which case AA could help you. After you’ve been sober for 6 months, get in touch with him and tell him about it…