I am a woman who was engaged to another woman. She proposed to me we have been together for five years. We have had our issues in the past, but we always made it through. The issue has always been that I have not changed certain things about our relationship even though I promised I would. She left me about ten days ago. I started no contact, she only texted me regarding a financial issue and I gave one reply only about that. I sent her two letter before beginning no contact. One was a pros and cons list and the other was an apology. Before she left me we spent the weekend together and that Tuesday morning and the entire weekend before we acted like a couple. Then that Tuesday night she went out on a date. The came to my house and would not really hear me out. She then came back the next morning to give me my stuff back, and she began crying saying how she does not want to do this. I told her I would give her 30 days and then we can maybe meet at Thanksgiving. She left me a note saying shell never forget me. After ten days of basically no contact she asked to call me so I let her. She called to tell me she has not read the letters, and why I have not taken our social media stuff down. She said she really likes this new girl who lives three hours from her. We talked awhile last night and I told her of all the things I am doing to improve myself. I could see she was listening then her walls would go back up. She cried and said she didn’t want to lose her best friend. I told her I am here, but she said I am too late at trying to change and that I should have appreciated what I had when I had it. I feel like this girl is a rebound. She still said last night that if we are still single at thanksgiving we can talk about us. She herself since the breakup has said she feels that we are soul mates. I worry that shell be with this rebound. Does anyone have any advice on how to proceed? What are my chances?
P.S. We are too long distance for right now because shes finishing her last year of college, was not sure if this would help anyone with advice
Thank you for any help, I feel like I’m drowning here.