The feelings you are feeling are completely normal. I remember I too struggled with what to say after NC even though there was so much stuff on my mind to say.
So I ended up texting him. And we’ve been texting since yesterday! I know I’m supposed to be keeping it short but it just feels so nice talking to him and sending funny memes to each other. I know he still has in mind that we’re friends and that’s okay with me. I know I can’t rush this and it’s a process but I missed talking to my best friend and just ignoring him makes me feel bad.
Update:
He hasn’t texted me since yesterday. And he hasn’t brought up anything about hanging out. I think he might be leaving it up to me now because I told him about a family friend passing away and he said if I needed to hangout to get distracted to let him know. We’ve been talking about work and how he has been. He asks me questions but I don’t know if he’s just doing it to be nice or because he really wants to keep the conversation going. His texts don’t seem cold to me when he responds but I do feel like I’m trying hard to get back what we use to have. (Im talking mostly about the funny replies) I’m still okay with being friends, I realized I wanted him in my life one way or another so I am okay with that. I really hope we can start like that again but who knows right? I’ve been expecting some kind of text from him telling me to not expect anything from being friends but he hasn’t so I guess it’s good?
I’ll keep you all posted.
@xicana17 Is there any update on your situation? Did you fully break no contact?
@tanda
He stopped texting me last week and texted me on Christmas Eve. He’s going to his friend’s wedding this weekend and he was telling me about it. He asked me if I wanted him to bring me something but I said no. I’ve already initiated twice to hangout but he doesn’t seem like he’s eager to hangout. So I’m just going to leave it at that.
I was sort of miserable on Christmas Eve (before he texted me). I was sad all day and usually I’m not because I love the holidays but this time it sucked. I was thinking about him.
But anyways, it’s not much of an update. We’ve just been texting some silly things and talk about our days at work or overall.