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Julia…. one thing that has helped me is writing letters to him without sending. I still cry every day also. Just try to find time to laugh. I still struggle a lot but someone told me to hold on because when you get that text from your loved one it will all almost be worth all the pain… or when you wake up stronger one day.
I had a job interview today…. and did really well and all i can think about is calling to tell him. And i cant. I hate it and i keep thinking about the voicemail that his mother left me. If his family thinks about me all the times does that mean he is too,
Yesterday i was alright. Today i am a mess. I wish that the pain would ease at least. I saw last night after mt night out that he has posted that he is a prisoner in his own mind. I want so bad to reach out to him… but i havent and i feel horrible for not. I wonder if he is missing me as much as i am. It just feels so wrong thats he isent a part of my life right now. Does anyone have any thoughts on what i should do?
Thank you all…. hopefully soon enough ill be able to five advice instead of asking for it. Its incredibly hard to do this when every cell in my body is literally in pain from being away from him. There was so much good but i was so clingy and had so many trust issues. I hope to god that im right in how i feel that he is the one. And he remembers what he told me. That we travel well and are a good team and have a lot of fun that this really isent goodbye. That the good things we have are enough to restart and that hes still in love with me. This past week. Ive worked on being more positive and strong. Ive gone out and even have a job interview thursday. But i find myself still wanting to share everything with him and to talk to him. I still FEEL him and i wonder if that went away for him after almost 2 months of this break.
Does anyone else get upset when all you hear everywhere else is “move on” because its not worth it. And that taking a break is code for i just dont want to man up and break up.. or hes just stringing me arond. It hurts so much. Im already afraid of that and worried. Has anyone else had a break like this work ?
I ran into my exs mother today at panera… she is an amazing woman and i didnt want to be rude so i talked to her. Apparently my ex has talked about me to them. I guess it was about a current event topic that i commented on awhile ago. I hope so much that this is a good sign that there are really still feelings there.
Thank you az and all I think i needed to hear what i feel in my heart. Im so happy i found a place where people believe in love.
I screwed up texted him once…. i hope to god after almost 2 monthes of trying to talk to him i havent ruined it all.
I just wish he would tell me its over. Or say something to me. He said he is still in love with me and that he needs some space to grow… and when i said i dont feel like we are over he told me there were so many positives between us and that he dosent think that was the last time i would see him. The last thing he said to me was its not goodbye its see you later. Is this just space or he just trying to let me down easy ?
Is there really a lot of evidence that this works? Ive done so much research and they all say not to talk to him for awhile but what if i cant shake the feeling that we are supposed to be together?
Pointer. I can feel that too. Every day i keep feeling like my situation will work out and he will come back. But im afraid to trust my own heart. Im so afraid of this no contact thing not working.
I hope i can grow to be as strong as you guys. This is completly killing me inside and out. I thought after the first month of not being together it would have started to get easier. But i miss him more now than ever… and the fear of loosing him completly is even worse. I just hope so much that he was telling truth on needing space to grow and that he really still does love me.
Some of these stories have really helpes and so has this site. My boyfriend decided that we needed a break after starting to argue more often and some other problems. He told me he still was in love with me and that there was a definate possibility that we could try again. He even kissed me after this talk. We are still friends on facebook w all of our pictures still up… but after a month of texting him every day i am scared to death that i ruined everything and that hes gone for good. And im also so afraid of this no contact thing not working. I can barely breathe im in so much pain. Im on day 2 and still scared out of my mind. I have so many questions. Does this really always work ? What if he decides he dosent want me anymore… what do i do ?
