[Cwilson]

It’s been 4 months since my relationship of 8 years ended,unfortunately, I just found this site tonight. I obviously did everything wrong. Although I initiated the breakup, he made the decision that I was right, that he was unhappy, that he was done trying. He gave up on us. Although I tried to convince him that we were meant to be together, that I loved him unconditionally. He was adamant that he was unhappy, that this was for the best. There was evidence of another woman but he vehemently denied that it was another woman. Just that I wasn’t making him happy. For the first few weeks I text him and he text me back. Constantly reminding me that it was me who ended things, that he just agreed. He even called me to explain why this wasn’t working and to assure me no woman had replaced him, although there was evidence of another woman. After week 5 I made the decision to not contact him and I stuck to it although it was hard as hell. He contacted me about 4 weeks later with a simple hello. Again I did the wrong thing and responded with I miss you. He never responded. Since then we have talked only concerning my son. Nothing personal. What I’m proud of is that I have not contacted him. That I’ve gone on a cruise, gone out with friends something I’ve never done because he didn’t want me to. That I’ve worked on me. Eating better, working out. Losing weight, went from 176 to 152. Working on me. Do I want him back? YES. If only to prove to him that I’m a better me , but he has to be a better him as well. I Realize that I’ve played a role in our relationships demise, but, but I’m not going to punish myself any longer. I no longer get up every morning and cry because he’s not here, or go to sleep crying because I miss him so. Every day gets easier, gets better. Every morning I tell myself I love me…

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