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Her texts aren’t normally so blunt either. She’d been conversing, albeit minimally about the TV show I mentioned before I sent the text about having plans.
I feel like I fucked it because I blew my cover with my friend visiting the cats thing.
As soon as she text about Portsmouth I replied straight away saying I was free Sunday. Like in minutes.
I got so paranoid and anxious again when I asked her why she as going to Portsmouth. Not proud of it, for my sake. I have to admit, I still find that odd. The friend who always seemed keen lives in our flat now. That’s where she’ll be staying.
Why is she now thinking about it when she asked me in the first place?
Wondering whether to send a clear the air text in the morning. Say I’m
envious of her and hope she has a good time, say hi to the guys for me. Maybe say truth is I cancelled the plans with my friend but didn’t know how to say it.More promising words from your end. Sounds like she’s in a good place too, which will be good for you.
I think I might have messed up. I spoke to my friend Jen and she told me to be ‘strategic’.
We texted today (continuation of above):
(me) Hey, sorry work was busy today. Jen was going to come and see the boys on Sunday. I could move things around though, what did you have planned? Xxx
No problem. I’m going to Portsmouth so it would be a fair bit of driving. Xxx
(I freaked out here, worrying she’s rebounding. Text back too fast.)
She just cancelled on me anyway. My god she’s annoying. Why are you going to Portsmouth, if you don’t mind me asking? Xxx
Well I have a week off uni so I’m going to see Liam and Jordan. Xxx
Very nice, I miss Portsmouth and those guys. What day are you going down? (wanted to find out about letter opportunity) It’d be good to see you Sunday, if you’d still like to visit. Xxx
No reply now. What do you think?
She text me asking if I still wanted to meet this weekend.
I said for sure, is Saturday good for you? If you have plans, not to worry.
She replied saying any chance you can do Sunday?
I’d rather not do Sunday as I have work the next day. Don’t have a lot of choice though, no point in leaving it any longer. Now I feel like she was only texting because she has other plans.
Such good news! That’s really amazing Patrick. If she says she doesn’t understand why things happened, I’d say that puts you in good stead.
If she asked you over then called it off it’s not just friends is it. Where are you meeting on Wednesday?
I was thinking the same thing honestly. I’ll text her tomorrow about our meet up. Christ I hope I just get to see her.
I’m kind of excited almost about it, need to keep it under control though.
I just don’t want to jeopardise anything, though I know I’m taking it as over for now.
If you don’t have time to read all of it:
– 1 month since breakup, one month of trouble before hand though.
– Were going to meet last weekend, even after she said it wasn’t to get back together
– I cancelled as I was scared, she phoned friend crying ‘head wants one thing, heart wants another’ ‘I thought this was over’
– I replied and we have re-arranged for weekend coming
– No contact since, sent a text about a tv show we used to watch and haven’t had a reply. Facebook likes have ceased. Still in a relationship on Facebook.
– Wrote my letter, just a few posts back
– Deliberating sending it or waiting to see her in person.
– Worried that these two weeks will have just bolstered her decision to leave
I appreciated your advice too last time, have you got anything to put in here?
You’re right. I need to be stronger. I only check because I love her so much, and as it stands it’s my only way of keeping her in my life. But it’s stupid.
I was doing alright, thinking about myself instead. Going to go back to that frame of mind now.
I hate that I feel like I’ve been losing hope, and surely if I feel like that she must be equal or further down that path. Who does she have to encourage her to keep fighting?
Interesting news on the like from you there, especially as it was a week ago. Also probably a smart decision on not starting anything new just yet.
Really starting to think calling our meet off was a bad idea. So much regret. I had a bad day yesterday, made the mistake of texting her about a TV show we used to watch. She didn’t reply.
I woke up this morning and saw she’d been online till 3am last night, after being absent online till about midnight. I hate technology, why do they bother showing you that info.
I just don’t know what’s happening and it’s making me crazy.
How are you supposed to
come back from being apart for so long? We haven’t even been apart because of other relationships etc.
