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Ahahah 🙂 I laughed at the part you said you could hear me yell your name ahah 😛
And you are always welcomed to share how you feel and vent. What we (or I) hate to hear is you doubting what needs to be done and going back and forth.
Yeah I think you should have stayed there for a bit if you were not rushing! Penelope!!!
But it’s fine. It’s the second short encounter in which he has been pleasant with you, so at the third time it will happen! 🙂
It’s ok, you are overthinking. Maybe she wasn’t feeling well herself. You have no idea what might be going on in her life. So don’t take it personally!
Penelope, happy new years, and at midnight, think about what is important in your life. YOU. Make this new year about You, and making your life what you want it to be. Think positive. By midnight take a deep breath. Breath in courage and positiveness, and breath out the past and negative feelings and try to start 2016 with a renewed energy <3
Hi, Kaila. I haven’t been on here for a long time but you suddenly came into my head the other day and I checked this board and, to my surprise, there was a message from you. Thank you for thinking of me.
I haven’t been on here because I have nothing to say. There’s no real news. Just more of the same crap. What’s the point of telling you all the same crap?
I’m going to start seeing a new therapist – I have been with mine for 15 years and she’s helped me through some really hard times but we can’t seem to get anywhere with this problem. I’m also angry with her; I feel like she sold me a fairy tale and then abandoned me. I haven’t been able to get past this resentful feeling and our sessions now only consist of: “you have to move, you have to move, you have to move. There’s no point in talking to him.” Broken record. I’m wasting money and time. This other therapist has come highly recommended to me by a friend – she’s supposed to be very direct.
He and I are the same – friendly but not at peace. The usual horsesh*t. Either he’s attention-seeking and I shut him down, or I’m trying to seek his attention and he’s lukewarm. I’ve recently been hanging out a lot with his close friends who are extremely fond of me. He’s never there, though, because he’s seeing someone new. I’m upset about this but viewing things more realistically this time around so while I’m sad (possibly repressing sadness) I haven’t gone off the deep end. Not heartbroken, I guess, because I’ve been here before and besides, I’d have to have a heart left to break.
There are no plans to leave the country. I don’t want to leave the country. My life is here. My friends are here. But, of course, I recognize that I’m completely stuck and it’s unlikely that I’ll be able to move on. I recognize that I won’t be able to move on unless I talk to him, and I also know that I can’t leave this country unless I talk to him. I’ve known this for a very long time. But every time I see him it’s like I freeze and panic. And now he’s with someone new. I just can’t do it. I’ve been so depressed lately, feeling like my life is ruined and I simply can’t see a future for myself.
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