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You’re right. I need to be stronger. I only check because I love her so much, and as it stands it’s my only way of keeping her in my life. But it’s stupid.
I was doing alright, thinking about myself instead. Going to go back to that frame of mind now.
Why give it in person when you could just say it in person? But whatever you think.
I appreciated your advice too last time, have you got anything to put in here?
If you don’t have time to read all of it:
– 1 month since breakup, one month of trouble before hand though.
– Were going to meet last weekend, even after she said it wasn’t to get back together
– I cancelled as I was scared, she phoned friend crying ‘head wants one thing, heart wants another’ ‘I thought this was over’
– I replied and we have re-arranged for weekend coming
– No contact since, sent a text about a tv show we used to watch and haven’t had a reply. Facebook likes have ceased. Still in a relationship on Facebook.
– Wrote my letter, just a few posts back
– Deliberating sending it or waiting to see her in person.
– Worried that these two weeks will have just bolstered her decision to leave
I’d make sure she was coming next weekend and send the letter. Then she can think about it.
But la bound might give a second opinion.
Strange happenings my side. We were texting for about an hour. Nice things. Catch up kind of. She wanted me to call around then changed her mind. She said she was thinking over the last few weeks about everything that happened and she doesn’t understand now why things happened. She likes talking in riddles. She did say that things happened that she didn’t want to happen. In her life she said.
But she asked what I was doing etc. And wants to meet Wednesday I think.
My replies were never needy or asking personal things. I was cool, funny, slightly flirty etc. And I knew when to stop. So I’ll keep you posted.
Hand written letter Charlie. Looks good.
Such good news! That’s really amazing Patrick. If she says she doesn’t understand why things happened, I’d say that puts you in good stead.
If she asked you over then called it off it’s not just friends is it. Where are you meeting on Wednesday?
I was thinking the same thing honestly. I’ll text her tomorrow about our meet up. Christ I hope I just get to see her.
I’m kind of excited almost about it, need to keep it under control though.
I just don’t want to jeopardise anything, though I know I’m taking it as over for now.
Yeah calling it off was probably a good sign. She said it would be wierd because she wanted to meet when the exams were finished. That would be Wednesday. She said again “this might sound crazy but I was going to ask you to call over”
Play out cool now Charlie. No silly mistakes
She text me asking if I still wanted to meet this weekend.
I said for sure, is Saturday good for you? If you have plans, not to worry.
She replied saying any chance you can do Sunday?
I’d rather not do Sunday as I have work the next day. Don’t have a lot of choice though, no point in leaving it any longer. Now I feel like she was only texting because she has other plans.
I think I might have messed up. I spoke to my friend Jen and she told me to be ‘strategic’.
We texted today (continuation of above):
(me) Hey, sorry work was busy today. Jen was going to come and see the boys on Sunday. I could move things around though, what did you have planned? Xxx
No problem. I’m going to Portsmouth so it would be a fair bit of driving. Xxx
(I freaked out here, worrying she’s rebounding. Text back too fast.)
She just cancelled on me anyway. My god she’s annoying. Why are you going to Portsmouth, if you don’t mind me asking? Xxx
Well I have a week off uni so I’m going to see Liam and Jordan. Xxx
Very nice, I miss Portsmouth and those guys. What day are you going down? (wanted to find out about letter opportunity) It’d be good to see you Sunday, if you’d still like to visit. Xxx
No reply now. What do you think?
I wouldn’t say you have fucked it. Why would work interfere with Sunday? Fuck work.
I probably wouldn’t have asked why she is going to Portsmouth. None of your business really.
I’d say she is thinking. She still sends xxx which I find strange.If she wants to meet then meet but don’t force it. It should be something she wants to do too.
You should have said yes to Sunday originally. She seems to be playing the game a bit too.
Send the letter by email if you really have to.
And be prepared for her. Remember you are cool. Don’t say you miss the guys. I would say to say hello to the guys. Miss sounds negative i think. Just for future reference.
With Me, she text some results today. She did really well. 2 firsts. I congratulated her. She then sent a photo of her with her baby niece this evening. The niece is 7 months old. I said she had gotten big and was beautiful. I sent o photo of my nephew. He is 2 months. she said 2 months went so fast. I’m guessing that had 2 meanings. Meaning we have been split up a long time actually.
Nothing since and I didn’t text either. I’ll text tomorrow. She has no exams tomorrow so I don’t see the point in me sending a good night out of the blue.
I feel like I fucked it because I blew my cover with my friend visiting the cats thing.
As soon as she text about Portsmouth I replied straight away saying I was free Sunday. Like in minutes.
I got so paranoid and anxious again when I asked her why she as going to Portsmouth. Not proud of it, for my sake. I have to admit, I still find that odd. The friend who always seemed keen lives in our flat now. That’s where she’ll be staying.
Why is she now thinking about it when she asked me in the first place?
Wondering whether to send a clear the air text in the morning. Say I’m
envious of her and hope she has a good time, say hi to the guys for me. Maybe say truth is I cancelled the plans with my friend but didn’t know how to say it.More promising words from your end. Sounds like she’s in a good place too, which will be good for you.
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