Devastated and don’t know what to do

[lizgrim]

So here’s an update:
It’s been a little over a year since he “left” me and started his bullshit over the Summer.
We’ve been together exclusively since September and we got married in March… He seems to have completely changed and it feels like I’m with a brand new person and that I’m a brand new person.
Our relationship is entirely different than it was.

My only complaint is that the memories are still there. I still think of the things he said and the things he did. I think of how awfully manipulative he was. I think of all the pain and the hurt and it makes me want to run. Which is crazy because a year ago I just wanted him back and now I feel like I want to move across the country and change my name forever so he can never find me. It’s a passing feeling. Usually lasts a few minutes and then I go on with my life. But it’s painful. So if your boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband comes back to you, just make sure you feel like you’ve done everything you need to get over it.

And definitely don’t sit at home crying waiting on them to come back. Don’t put your life on hold. Go out and explore. Do stuff. Kiss whoever you want. Fuck whoever you want. That’s my regret. That I stayed home and waited for him. That I spent an entire summer letting him affect me. That I wasted months of my life I will never get back. The only reason he came back was because I moved out. Because I moved on. Because I wasn’t staying at home for him anymore. He was terrified of losing me and I made sure he knew he wasn’t going to have me anymore with someone else in his life. I know this won’t work for everyone. I know every relationship is different but I truly think no matter what, you need to focus on yourself. Get a hair cut. Work out. Enjoy your life without them.

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